Continuing the discussion from Is redemption the greatest trait of a schizophrenic:
It’s odd that this one popped up again when I was scrolling. Last night I finally set eyes on my baby brother. He’s been in hospital since March and is due out soon. He’s been diagnosed with bipolar 1. It has been one wild year with him.
He’s just now starting this hard path. After seeing him last night, I’m a bit ashamed at how I’ve been acting. We both have to start over and work on regaining some redemption. Trying to face past damage is a very hard thing to do.
What an eye opener. After seeing him last night it was like looking at a different person in my brother’s skin.
My baby brother has always been the dare devil danger boy. Popping wheeles at 70 miles an hour on his motorcycle in school zones, jumping off the 520 inlet bride and free falling into the water. Adrenaline junkie, hard core party guy, hard drinking, non-stop big planner, reckless gambler, fanatic lifeguard trainer, ocean swimmer, all around loving the taste of danger. Rampant sexual appetite, been engaged more times then any of us can count, yes at 20. Always in minor trouble with the law.
Hard to hold a conversation with him that doesn’t soon turn into a huge plan to pull off a bank heist or do something “free and daring”
He can party for days since he hardly ever slept. Would Constantly pull our Kid sis out of class to go water ski or panhandle or jet skating. When the chipmunks were young… he was a rampant shop lifter. He would coach our sis to be the diversion while he picked the shelves clean.
He got amazing grades, super hyper friendly, so people didn’t think mental illness. He didn’t withdraw. He was the center of all chaos. Until he was dangerously angry and moody and then it was drink to pass out and wake up in the normal hyper state of thrill seeking.
It’s hard to believe, we’ve been looking at nearly 20 years of manic. Now that he’s down to earth, he’s in shock. I’m in shock. I can understand why the docs just went for injection. I have a feeling he’s going to have a hard time adjusting to life here on earth.
I can’t believe none of it registered as manic. It’s been going on so long, we thought it was just how he was.
Now I do feel sorry for the guy. I really hope he doesn’t end up depressed. He’s on meds. But I don’t think that would stop depression… would it? The poor guy really seems to be in a deep state of shock.