3 positives


Had a horrible night because of insomnia and didn’t get out of bed until 4:30 PM.

Started feeling depressed but pushed myself to go to work.

Drank 2 liters of water.


Passed my first day at day treatment
Scheduled an outing with friends
My delusions appear to be improving

  1. Talked with my old boss; I start working at the gas station again (remodeling is done) Friday night (midnight shift). It’s a crummy job, but beggars can’t be choosers.

  2. My sister helped me out with some money (again). I hate asking her for that, but once I start getting pay from the gas station I shouldn’t need it anymore. I can hope, anyway.

  3. I had an easy night of teaching. I gave exams in both lectures, easy but boring, after which was a fairly easy and quick lab. Just looking at human cells and tissues under microscopes.

  1. Got up before 9 am;
  2. Practiced meditation this morning;
  3. Better understanding of Confucius’ philosophy.

  1. Got the kidlets to and from school
  2. Got my sweet little pup groomed
  3. Made a decent meal

But I’m ready for bed


You are all doing great and you are great. Your successes makes me feel… dunno… mellow!


Woke up early, went to gym
Worked all day and made $
Texted with my new boyfriend


For yesterday:

  • I worked
  • I cooked for my father and son. Put my son to bed myself. He wants me to live with them (he lives with my parents). The situations is a bit sad for him and me, but i guess it is a sign we have a good bond still too, that he asks me to not go away each time. I contemplate having him sleep at my house again in the weekend.
  • I brought nice new wintershoes.


1). I have been very happy and excited because I am getting a new second hand country car tomorrow izzz da plan.
I am thankful for all the years I have been driving my family car.i never owned the family car but was driving it.
Now the plan is I will have my very own car and I will be the owner.:pray:t3::two_hearts::tada::metal:t5::stuck_out_tongue_closed_eyes::slightly_smiling_face:

2). I made tomato mix with overripe tomatoes and I have a great partner and great loved ones.i miss some of my spirit friends.we can laugh together sometimes.
I was raised by my stepmom I had aswell.
I remember words she said to me and how she raised me.my biological mum and her are very much the same in so many ways.they are very different but surprisingly similar aswell.i adore them both.

3). My partner and I weeded today.
I love :two_hearts: him.
We are very different.
We believe differently,have different humour etc but despite this we may be good to and for each other.
If we married would that make me disloyal to someone I lost contact with or the only man I remember I had eye contact with …
Because I believe my man and I can spend the rest of our lives together.
It is not impossible.

My mum sent me a link to watch a show.
I love reading (hearing)from her.

I love :two_hearts: you guyzzz .
You are awesome!:metal:t5::pray:t3::two_hearts:

  • I went to my appointment with my Job Specialist and it went well
  • I printed my own business cards and laminated them (cost $1)
  • I sorted Insurance for my new business and found out that i didn’t need another disclosure done.

  1. Woke up with only slight pain in the shoulder
  2. Got my SAD lamp
  3. Appreciative of my lovely parents and sibling


Is the lamp helping?


I’m not sure, just keeping it on next to my laptop. Don’t feel super bouncy or anything, but maybe there’s a subtle effect.

  1. 6/28
  2. I ate. I ate a lot. I ate a lot of food and couldn’t stop.
  3. (2) 10 minute walks on the treadmill.

  • Met a friend I didnt see for ages.
  • Overcame my fear and dared to ask my ex if he and his daugher wanted to spend a few days around new years eve with us on a holiday park (in separate houses). I was superscared of what he would say, but he said yes. So if all things work out well, the four of us will have a fun few days of holidays. :slight_smile: I’m actually really proud… I have social anxiety and I think it is the first time in my life I dared to ask someone by myself to spend the new years eve together. Normally I always wait untill I’m asked or spend it with people who will never say no (boyfriend/parents/son).
  • I had healthy dinner - spaghetti bolognese leftovers, but still: no takeaway, no junk food.

  1. I had a lovely shopping spree with my mother lol. When i was younger i never allowed her to come with me, now i don’t care what others think. We have completely normal and functional relationship.
  2. Cared for cat in a lovely way.
  3. Started lovely conversations around web.

Lovely day.

  1. Spaghetti meatballs for tea :sunglasses:
  2. Olibobs new molar is nearly through and he will be done teething for a few months, yaaaaaaay!
  3. Boyfriend has been home every night (he usually works away!

  1. I had a silent phone all day thanks to changing my number
  2. Made a decent meal for the kidlets
  3. Took my pills early and shouldnt be long before I fall asleep


Quit smoking.
At gym.
Feeling good.


Went to the gym

Got my car but there’s some issues with it so I can not drive it.yet.
Hopefully I can afford to fix it or get help to do so.
But I got it anyway n thankful for that.

I got my favourite cranberry and turkey salad in special for only $1.99.
Usually they cost $9 I think which is a bit to expensive for me really but it is so delicious and great.