I’m stressed Wave. I’m a person who gets his mood from the weather… we’ve had some disappointing conditions over head this summer haven’t we? Let’s not forget this… it can’t help.
You might need to tell a therapist and talk it out.
I noticed you said you will “take enough Klonopin…”.
It might start an attachment, that when you are stressed out, you take a benzo.
So toughing it out, talking it through, working through the stress might be a good option.
I have this delusional paranoia and don’t feel safe a lot. @twinklestars recent post made me feel better, seeing the laboratory vocabulary and number of people they found for the study made me hopeful really helpful too in that it’s not real. This site does that too just differently!
You’re not a weak person. We all handle things in different ways. You can try some deep breathing when you feel overwhelmed. I used to get stressed about stuff pretty easily and everything bothered me. It’s not as bad anymore, meditation has helped and my AD helps too. I’m less frantic and no longer know edge all the time.
I got some scary delusions, I guess. They’re unshakeable. Perhaps, a little fantasy in there or make believe. But I think I am John Titor (invented Time machine) and Satoshi Nakamoto (inventor of bitcoin) but it’s not real. I worry I’ll be hurt or something…just by talking about said thoughts and delusions. I have no money or proof but it feels real sometimes and feels like I was cloned by aliens or something.
Didn’t mean to derail, but ya I cannot work or do anything, and I’m scared. I feel like I got amensia and ptsd as well as like 10 other diagnoses lol…