Ok, I think that my biggest problem is my fear… in my worst, I am scared, that the others will even agress me, cause I am this weak and scared person… I get scared even when someone shouts there in the street… I am afraid, that they know me all and that they dont like me, so they will want to punch me 
it’s very hard, pals, for real… I am also very criticized by my family on my fears… they tend to get angry about that, which is not right to do, but I cant change them, they all suk with me tbh…
But well, do you still get moments of intense fear? You know, when i get it, i feel it in my head, in my guts, in my stomach, in my chest, even in my legs, who become interiorly shaky and vibrant from fear…
I probably act then as these abused animals, who scream and shout by terror even from a touch, showing their teeth… Yeah, the fear makes me act like that 
My mind is not calm then, it only thinks about a defense… My pdoc was saying, that I cant think well, cause I have mostly paranoid thoughts…
I even cant walk at the worst of my paranoia… but I was so scared before, that I wasnt realizing that this is fear…
Tell me, you still get your scared moments? What do you do then? You wait until it passes and you move forward? Please, pals, share with me on that…
Do you find the zyprexa good for paranoia? My pdoc said it’s the best med. But I am still not relieved in my head a lot by it… maybe with time…
Please, share how bad was your fear, was it even physical as for me? Manifesting even in the body too so painful too? Yeah, it’s like that… as I said, I am like these abused dogs who show their teeth from fear… I suffer consequently from irritability too…
I get scared about the stages of the end of my life. I won’t talk about it as I don’t want to upset people on here. But just so you get an idea.
I sort of live in fear.
I am getting therapy one day and will talk about this fear.
Thank you for sharing. Try to beat that, yeap.
But me, I find that I am very severe on my paranoia… as I said, I really feel like these animals who show their teeth and scream and shake, because of an abuse…
I was so low, that I wasnt realizing that the fear causes me irritability from the others too 
I wonder if I can only get better now, if the zyprexa will help more or if I’ll have this scary moments, where I hide from the others…
I’ve always had much more fear in my life than other people knew. My insides would be twisting with anxiety during high school, and I think some people did pick up on it. The fear was pretty intense. Of course I had to put forth an image like I was a bad ass, but it was all show. I guess I still have quite a bit of fear in my life, decades later, but I’m more used to it now. I don’t walk home feeling so miserable and hopeless. I learned to make the best of it, to enjoy life’s little graces. Last night they had an Alfred Hitchcock film festival on tv. I really enjoyed it.
I am afraid, that I achieved animal stages with this fear of mine 
Can I get better with time on the zyprexa, @crimby ? Is it a good med this ap?
To be scared, that someone will agress me or beat me is a paranoia, right?
I have it towards everyone, am severe i guess yeah…
Personally, I found Zyprexa to be dulling. It made me crave sugar and want to sleep a lot. Sometimes the idea of sleeping a lot appeals to me, but most of the time it doesn’t. It is natural to have some wariness of your fellow humans. There are people who won’t hesitate to take advantage of you, sometimes in a vicious way. Just don’t let your fear possess you.
Yeah, I wonder if the dulling is a good terrain for being even more scared… what do you think on that? When you are smashed, how can you deal with stress lol?..
My pdoc kept asking me in the past, if I am scared to be attacked or if I am scared to attack myself… I was mute on that question… But cause I was mostly scared to be attacked yeap, but still ready to defend myself if needed… but in the same time, I couldnt stand on my feet by this fear from the others, so I wouldn’t have attacked no one either…
I guess this paranoia comes from the beatings of my dad and the constant terror in my family of them
But I really look like an animal now, I got deep in the sz… does someone here was bad as hell, but you got better?
Crimby, do you think zyprexa is a good med still against this fear of mine to be aggressed?
Thank you for answering too 
I just am tired to be this animal, not a human since years… just this terrible illness…
The others please?
Did you find the zyprexa good for your paranoia?
I guess it feels great, when you are relieved by this sh**, isnt it?
Which medications are you on?
Which dose of zyprexa?
I think Zyprexa should help lessen fears and maybe paranoias. When I was on it I wasn’t fearful or paranoid.
Thanks for the answer, manny 
Well, only the zyprexa lessened a bit my fears, but i still have paranoia every single day!!! And its very bad still… My doc says, that i can need years to fix my mind. I have thinking deficits as well, i find that to be a good terrain for paranoia too… When you are dumb and low, maybe you are scared too, cause i still realize how life is 
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Maybe i need to wait still that itll ease my paranoia with the time? Maybe i am still bad, cause ive started my medications after being ill for long before the treatments…
@Zoe , i am on klonopin, zyprexa and depakote. The zyprexa is 10 mgs…
Hey Anna1
Have you tried therapy in your country for paranoia?
Paranoia is absolutely horrible I know
My expdoc was a psychotherapist too…She kept saying, that i need to go outside more and be more active… I am so severe case, that the docs even just dont take me seriously…
I have somatics because of the paranoia, you know… Its almost like physical hallucinations, but very, very painful and when i am scared, its pure hell…
Anyway, i took a bit the advice of my doc to move more, but i sometimes get just paralyzed by paranoia , hiding in my bed, crippled in foetal position, enduring this since years…
Ive tried all the other 12 aps here on the market, they were helping even less than the zyprexa… Some of them made me crazier too, like seroquel for example, clozapine, clopixol etc…
You know @Zoe , one doc was honest with me and he said, that they gave me too many aps through the years… This made me dull. So the dullness can be a source of suffering too i think, right? So this doc said to stop switching aps… Maybe i need to recover from the smashness too, you know… He also said, that in his opinion, the zyprexa is the best med for severe sz…
So my hope is that i need time to recover from the dullness from all my past meds, which wasnt the right thing to do, but i had tough docs, who didnt care a lot i guess… Maybe once i am less dull, i’ll be less scared too, idk…
No need to be paranoid of other people, I’m sure they don’t want to hurt you, just as you don’t want to hurt them.
I mean, what makes you paranoid of the other people? If you don’t mind me asking.
Look, my father was beating till death my mother and my sister… Now after his death, we are all apart… My mother is tired and desperate too i find…
I havemy reasons to be paranoid, cause my mother and even my nephew shout at me, when i say something crazy… Once, my mother said, that she’ll take away my civil rights, cause i am quite unfunctional… She doesnt believe at all in a happy life for me, she keeps saying that ill be forever sick and alone… I have my anger sometimes with that and the paranoia with it 
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Why i am so scared? Maybe because of the terror of my father… I am scared that people will aggress me, precisely cause i am this fearful being, fearful even from their craziness etc…
Sorry to hear all that…
That’s dreadful.
I hope one day you become able to move away from them all and able to surround yourself with people that can believe in you just as you do yourself.
Yea… The thing with the civil rights was dreadful, thats right… She said it and after few days, she claimed that she didnt say it…
Idk, i am tired of feeling angry too though… Not a nice family the mine, isnt it? …
Yeah, this is sad… I am tired of the sadness too though…
should i kill myself with this family???
I am a bit tired of fighting…
Or someone else heard very terrifying things from his mother too? i think i am the only one though…
Keep fighting Anna 