Ok, I am more alive even on the small dose of lithium - 300 mg. But gosh, I am scared… Is it the natural way of getting better? Were you scared too when you started to ‘‘feel’’ more the things? Maybe first come the side effects and just then, the good things from the meds?
One month and 3 weeks that I am on lithium now.
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Take care Anna…!!! U never replyed my pm … whats going on Anna…
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Maybe wait for next appointment with doctor
If you better then good if not he can try something else
Cant it be a side effect of the lithium(the anxiety), which eventually will disappear?
People, I am at the bottom, ive tried all the aps in the past with no success. The antidepressants lift my paranoia and anxiety. what else do I have like med? I have no strength to believe in the docs. I dumbed my last doc cause she was saying that ill always suffer from negatives. And the Zyprexa is killing me slowly, really. I have no other options with the meds, idk… I spent 8 years only seeing my ex doc and she couldn’t help me at all…
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Sometimes meds do have side effects that diminish after being on the med for a while. Hang in there Anna1
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Ok @Hop3, thanks. But I have this tremendous pressure from my mother. I stopped going out completely and she says its the lithium. Did this med work on somebody here against his/her fears? I just want to hope that its up to time to settle my anxiety, but I am afraid that for the moment its not good sign… It will be bad cause atleast, I am more alive on it. But I cant live with anxiety either.
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Do you mind me asking what it is you’re afraid of when you go outside Anna?
I know it’s a very personal question, and can be hard to answer, so don’t mind ignoring my question.
But, sometimes we can get it wrong, completely wrong, when we fear something and in fact when it happens we are able to cope with it. It’s surprising what a human being can cope with, we can surprise ourselves.
I used to be afraid that people would see that I was crazy, and be mean to me, perhaps they would make my life hell and throw bricks through my windows or eggs at my door.
Well, for me, it has happened. For one reason or another, I am now the local ‘weirdo’ the worst has happened… but it’s not too bad, I can handle it. My neighbours don’t talk to me, they leave me alone which is GOOD in my opinion. They are all assholes anyway.
Sometimes, what we fear will be unbearable, in fact we can bear it, and we are stronger then we realised.
Best wishes Anna
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its something like it was for you. Fear that they’ll reject me, but there is the fear of myself in it already. I already can feel anger and irritability toward others and this is tough. I wont act, I am pretty sure of it, but its very painful to be so ragy and in so much pain. I am too sad that I went so deep in the illness. Sorry, but 15 years between 4 walls made the damages too important. I don’t have the strength anymore to fight and I am pissed by my mother who says that I should fight like a soldier, yeah… she didn’t miss her youth as far as I know…
I’ve lost my youth too, I’m older than you 
Yeh life’s been hard to me, but I won’t cry about it
It is what it is, it was my fate or divine providence to have this life
I don’t like it but I’ll live it
You’re young Anna things can change for you
Me, I guess this life has not been good, I’m not going to cry about it, I’ll just do the best I can with my bad hand
I wish you well Anna
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Well, Anna, some people will like you and some will reject you. That is how life is, for normies too you know… Some people are assholes and some are not. I’m sorry you spent all those years in isolation, but Anna don’t think you have suffered more than everyone else. I would have spent 15 years in isolation if i could have… but I needed money to eat, I lived 2 years inside making big debts on my credit card… eventually I had to go out. Best wishes sweetheart
Ok, i guess i am not the only ill who spends her time at home,no?.. but there are some things which are too much. Like i couldnt sit on christmas on my moms table calmly for more than 5 minutes. I had to get up and pace cause i was anxious and its too much this, you see?.. the problem is that the zyprexa smashes so much my brain that i am always suicidal on it. What can i do? I tried meds for 8 years…
Did you give the meds a chance to work Anna, I mean a month or more?
Half the people on here spend a lot of time at home.
Its been a month and three weeks on lithium. Zyprexa wont help me alone, i was on it for 2 years and a half. I still pray for the lithium…
yeh i know, i meant the other older meds
I went crazy on clopixol, haloperidol and leponex. Fluanxol didnt work at all… i dont think the aps will help me. I have negatives you know… abilify made me agitated.
k would you give sarcosine a try?
Anna , I don’t want to be hard to you, but you have to toughen up a little, you can still be a princess, a warrior princess. I believe you have a lot of strength in you, but you don’t use it. Am I terrible
You are not hard, dont worry. Just one thing- what if the bad side effects of the meds are too crazy and i wont be capable to counteract them with efforts? You see what i mean? Zyprexa made me really suicidal for example and i wasnt able to fight this you know… it was like some bad dope, very bad dope who was giving me some hard low. I wasnt able to beat this. The spirit can be broken sometimes by those meds…
k if the med is too hard then you should stop it. But you’ve been taking the zyprexa for a long time, and you were ok.
It’s human to have ups and downs, it may not be the med causing this, just how life is… you know.
You still take the zyprexa and it didn’t break your spirit.
Best wishes Anna