yeah! a complete lack of desire to have sex with anyone! woo hoo! YEAH! It’s party time! Getting wild the asexual way!
I still wonder what the ancient hebrews thought of such a thing? Was it illegal? Allowed? Did they scratch their heads and shrug their shoulders in a “i just don’t know” kind of fashion. Would they have forced me to have sex with someone? That would be so hideous if they forced me to have sex with people, it would be like getting raped for me.
I still have those annoying urges at times though, but i just rub it out right quick and couldn’t imagine actually doing that with anyone or anything of any sex or orientation. I would completely demolish all urges if i could, it’s so annoying to me and not to mention i find the act to be outright repugnant and disgusting.
Don’t knock it till you try it right?! Well i did. The first time i did the deed i thought as my ■■■■■ slipped in the hole “ugh. I can’t believe im doing this right now, this is quite strange to me and i don’t think i like this at all, it’s nasty as well. People do this?” I wasn’t quite sure yet though so i did it two more times and that is all it took, i was forever more absolutely disgusted with all sex and wouldn’t do it at all if i wasn’t forced by my stupid dying meat body that at times needs to be shut up.
And oh my freaking blank i couldn’t believe how much they tried to build it up in my head over the years. movies glorifying it, people talking it up as if it were sheer bliss, even threatening behaviours directed at you if you didn’t get any. These guys just made it sound so so great and that they could not live without it and “you have to try it” and “have you done it yet”, the lies were endless as to the nature of it and how great it really was.
It was a cataclysmic let down, the imaginary sex had been toppled over in just an instant and i frowned from the many years of lies and false perceptions.
The only way im doing that again is if my life depends on it. The consequences of not doing so would have to be disastrous.
(chirp. chirp. chirp. chirp.)
“Hello? Hello hello hello hello…”(tapering echo as if i were in a cave)
So after these three times of “making love” as some would call it i ran into her and she let me stay at her place.
I was so very lucky because she took me in off of the streets, i was suffering badly and she helped me out.
The girl i loved. I really did to, i loved her, i could have spent alot of time around that particular girl actually. Everything about her was wonderful to me, she was the whole package.
So, one night after staying there a bit she began hitting on me. I didn’t respond because i had already had sex, oh im sorry i meant “make love”, three times and hated it entirely. I loved her but i didn’t want to love her if you know what i mean.
So after a few more nights there she started boning this other guy and then gave me the boot back into the streets. I left a couple of hundred dollars to say thanks and that was it.
There were a few asexuals on my old forum. One has since discovered that he was never asexual at all…he has a girlfriend now and we haven’t heard from him in months but he always checks back in at least every six months or so. I’m not saying that all asexuals are like this guy I’m talking about…I don’t know as I’ve always had some sort of attraction to the opposite sex…but I can relate to feeling indifferent about it for long, lonely stretches of time. I’ve just never been anyone you could describe as asexual.
I’d gladly refer you to my old forum…but…I’m not sure I trust you…I like you…I’m just not sure I trust you
I haven’t been with anyone in about 3-4 years, and I don’t have any desire to do it again. It’s like people think that sex is the purpose of human life. I don’t need it. I’m sure people think I’m a total weirdo for it though.
Lol I am, and I’m an artist. So there’s at least one. I gave it up because it embarrasses me so much. But at least I got a kid first and he is awesome. Makes it really hard to date! I tried the asexual dating sites with no luck so far.
If I never have sex again…so be it. But I am certainly open to it if I get a chance. I’ve seen too many women initiate having sex just out of the blue when it is least expected to give up hope completely. I like the actual sex itself but the deterrent is all the crap you have to go through to get to that point. Sometimes it’s worth it, sometimes it isn’t.
Well having a girlfriend is a good start. I know how you feel. I didn’t lose my virginity until a month after I turned 20! But up to that point it was all I thought about every day.
Yes,77nick77,I would like to let you know I couldn’t erect fully because of my medication,but I promise to myself not to think about problem too much and take it naturally
