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I’m ashamed that i’m a creative person but i have little to zero greenthumb
Would like to learn how to grow plants and gardening
but srsly im very ashamed
nothing else comes close
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I feel ashamed about how I treated my mother when I was a teenager
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thanks for your honesty and strength @Joker
hows your relationship with your mother now is she still around?
You dont have to answer if you dont feel comfortable
But we’re here for ya 
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i also feel guilty how i treated my dad when i was first diagnosed
both my parents, but more my dad
fortunately weve all but mended our relationships now
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I tied my dog up with only food and water and never went out to check on him otherwise because I thought a demon was in him…he cried one time I came to the kitchen window and I laughed at him…never, can’t forget it…I forgive myself, but i will never forget it.
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I’m ashamed after having voices that it’s like someone knows my every secret. And That I should have lived better.
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I’m so ashamed of so many things, and I cringe when their memories come back to me. I cringe a lot.
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The past is the past crimby. Worry about your mistakes now? I’ve made mistakes but I prefer to be ashamed of something that effects me more in the present moment. Not having a green thumb. It effects me now. Ptsd ■■■■■■■ sucks and it’s a disorder that just happens imo. Not saying you have ptsd I’m not able to diagnose by any means. But I’d rather be ashamed of what’s holding me back now then all the mistakes I made in the past. Still flashback a lot to past memories.
But I like to focus on what effects me now tyvm
To eaches own although. Don’t listen me. I know I know nothing 
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It’s a really good relationship
She did well sticking by me, and now I do my best to treat her when I can
This whole SZ thing came right after, and she was always fighting battles for me - whether school or medical professionals
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That’s good to hear
Times can get pretty rough, but I am glad you have reconciled the situation
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My mom/dad
We’re always very empathetic of my mental health
there. I credit them for a lot of my recovery…. Not saying it can’t be done without parents. But I don’t think it can be done with all alone…. Just my opinion.
Definitely not an easy feat to go it alone.
As much support as there is out there, it’s hard to find something comparable
I think if things were super rough Social Services might be a good thing
Sometimes I wish I lived in a group home.
But when I got diagnosed I was just going to get put in supported housing on my own and that would only last a year
I had a paranoid delusion about my parents at the time and refused to go home with them
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I have ddnos. Official new diagnosis. My main alter had no father. I tried to block him out. Because my dad had horrible GAD from when I was 10-18 (he started lexapro and Xanax at that point). And that’s about the time I started accepting my dad back into my life. But it was turbulent at first. But he’s stuck with me. So lucky to have my favorite dad ever as my actual dad 
I may be biased. But he’s appreciated by me.
When did that get diagnosed?
I have a step dad who has been there for me, but we did used to fight a lot. My biological father killed himself when I was 3, but from what I have been told about his promiscuity and drinking, not sure he’d have been a good influence.
Still suicide stopped his story from evolving. He restored classic cars for a living. Now that would be a cool skill to have. He had his own garage
I had paranoid delusions that whole family was plotting to kill me for being dishonest. I kept hearing all their voices telling me goodbye. I still regretfully have a hard time around them.
Officially just yesterday
She brought up DID last week. But I didn’t fit the criteria for amnesia between alters.
It makes toooooooo much sense to me
This weeks session was 100% focused on finding my diagnosis and what makes sense.
Well she told me Ddnos is the one
They thought I might be bipolar imo because I have SAD (seasonal effective disorder) and SUD (substance use disorder). Might have confused pdocs in the past. But finally I can articulate well. And we’ll my therapist is an expert on ptsd and did and said she can dx axis 1-5 and she’s the one who straight up told me I had a DID type disorder. Then I researched ne discussed further and she said ddnos makes most sense
O yeah lamictal and lithium??? Do you mean sugar pills??? Because that’s one of 100 reasons I’m not bipolar. They do nothing for me really but make me anxious a little bit.
Naltrexone helps disassociation and substance abuse. Which is no wonder it benefits me so much.
Sorry bout ur biological dad. Sounds real rough wondering what could have been…. Hang in there joker
That’s a shame. I hope it can improve. Mine went away after a few months, but that was Olanzapine doing that, and 2 years later I was 35kg’s heavier!
The invega helped me to know it wasn’t real. But so eerie it left feeling strange about a lot of things.
Nice man. Seems like you have been through a hell of a lot of searching out to get the right treatment
Best of luck with the new dx. I hope now they can give you a care plan that’s tailored to your dx
It’s ok. It didn’t affect me as I was too young. Just sucks he’s not here and the rest of his family disowned us as they blamed my mother for his death