What are you ashamed about?
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I’m too ashamed to tell you. 
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To be honest, after going through psychosis and thinking the whole world had seen me naked, I don’t think I feel ashamed about anything anymore. Trauma changes us!
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I’m with you, psychosis made me shameless. 
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I still behave in public though.
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Same. The only odd thing I do is pace a lot.
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That’s not as bad as talking to yourself.
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I’m ashamed of my shower pic, it could have been clearer 
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The iconic shower picture!!! That was hilarious 
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I’m most ashamed of the things I did while psychotic that I remember.
Like, one time I thought if I talked it would make something really bad happen. I thought I had magical evil powers and was trying really hard not to kill anyone by talking. Even when it was happening it was embarrassing. I would try to write things down. I lied and said it was a side effect of the invega I was on at the time because I didn’t want anyone to know how evil I was.
Ugh. ■■■■ like that embarrasses me. And that happened like 7 years ago.
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Nothing.
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I’m ashamed of not having a job and depending on my parents.
I’m also ashamed of my deviant sexual interests and my inability to control them.
Though society might consider kinks and fetishes to be normal variation, I find that mine are constantly changing and becoming more and more repulsive to me.
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When I was psychotic at the hospital they put me on an IV drip of something I don’t know what except that it (or the psychosis) made me extremely horny that I was touching myself in front of the professionals n my sibling it was that BAD. My most shameful thing I can’t say though lol
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I am not ashamed of my psychosis, I feel more like humiliated. I think people who hurt me should feel humiliated themselves. It is a stupid world we live in.
I am embarassed by past memories I guess.
I am not ashamed of other things.
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I’m ashamed of my intrusive thoughts.
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Geeeeez. That sucks! People do it for money so don’t feel ashamed. Illness is horrible.
I also get a little too crazy off meds. It is not normal I guess
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I feel out of control of my sexuak desire and interests, it has begun to consume me, my sense of morality is almost gone in that area. Very frightening stuff.
Also ashamed of being disabled by my symptoms. They make my life very empty because I cannot focus on the activities which used to entertain me and keep me moving forward.
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The sexual thing is not ur fault its the medicine. Abilify has impulsivity problem side effects. Others probably have similar issues but yea when I had that it was very draining. I really hope it gets better for us with time with the negative symptoms as we come off them but who knows.
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The old me was very in control and dispassionate about sexual matters. My libido and response was normal. Now I feel like whenever I have an orgasm I’m taking a hit of crack. The process has become excessive. If it weren’t for hypersexuality I would likely often forget I even have mental imbalances. I’m off abilify for the past week but I still have extreme issues with this and other symptoms.
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