Been off meds 2.5 months. I get intrusive thoughts and sometimes intrusive thought panic attacks, but today when I was out in public I felt like I was God and I created the Universe. Almost as if one consciousness is divided into many different people but I created it all. It was weird. Maybe cos I got no sleep last night.
I also noticed a lot of people look the same
Damn. Must be a common sza delusion because i had those thoughts and beliefs too. I dont think im 1 in a billion. Only explanation is schizophrenia or aliens in my case. Even aliens seems far out. Why pick me? Im not better than you.
Aw geez … 
Lol I’ll try my best not to relapse
I told my dad my delusions today and he said its basically impossible to be all those people and live billions and billions of lives…
Crazy
@NotSeksoEmpirico had the same delusion when he came off meds recently.
Yeah we’re both delusional
I would consider getting back on meds @StonePaperScissors.
Things can go South very quickly.
Yeah, I’m considering it. Thanks.
Feels too real though. Like true. I guess thats schizophrenia. I dont know. Im on meds though.
Maybe im just entertaining myself to feel better lol.
I feel like im on a fake internet too like this message board is fake.
I wouldnt want to go to other sites.
Even youtube is mostly positive.
I think either ai, censorship, or my schizophrenia or even the wrong crowd.
Im paranoid about blm and antifa now. Mainly because of this site.
People get hacked, doxxed, and stuff. I post stuff I feel is real and could be misconstrued the wrong way.
Therapy doesn’t help. Feels like a conspiracy theory.
I have real memories and fears.
I legitimately know im bat â– â– â– â– insane. I dont want to be taken advantage of.
I dont want people to believe me either.
My mind is literally â– â– â– â– â– â– up. I worry about aliens and milabs too.
I worry about my family. I dont think schizophrenics will go extinct or get targeted at all. Maybe less benefits, that’s why i think something is weird about my life.
I dont think we are going to live under fascism or communism in my life, hopefully. I get really scared. But the bible talks about this.
A lot of schizophrenics believe we are in end times as well as religious folks…(feels extremely real to me, guys)
I have to live with integrity and be good and nice.
Should get back on meds man.
I’ve often felt like a robot, alien hybrid, or even a full blooded alien (helped create and run the matrix in a way i guess). Not sure why or how I got to have schizophrenia. Seems permanent like a severe punishment or worse. You think I’d be immune lol…
It’s true that sometimes I believe that I was sent by God and Co-created the universe, but reading that other people share the same unusual belief only seems to reinforce it, I mean, we are all literally the same person unless proven otherwise.
Maybe from the same consciousness/entity but we are divided to make us individual and unique.
Well I never really said I was the only computer simulator. Theres probably a lot. Id assume most are schizophrenic like myself.
But your basing your evidence on our delusions.
Can you elaborate why you believe this?
I think i have. I liken it back to philip k dick 's speech in France in the 70s. I experienced the same thing and even believe I had the letter and it was given to him. Just a part of it.
I remember stuff, but i talked all about it before. People don’t like the idea we live in the matrix.
I dont know what or who runs it. I guess aliens. I or we don’t really know. I hope its isomorphic, God, or not real.
I remember stuff else too. Perhaps its on another earth or planet or even through the big bang.
I had a quantum computer and another computer. Im doing recall here.
Why would they pick you?
I know why they picked me. They try confusing me and let me know only what they want me to know…
I remember being in my house. Perhaps with aliens and reptilian shapeshifters…i thought my step dad ran it too, but that part can’t be real. Its part of the illusion and mind control aspect i realize now.
I have to believe in Christianity but that doesn’t mean it’s right. They forced me. It gives me a sense of morality and comfort among other things…
I dont think we are all the same people at all. Your statement makes me question the value of your delusion.
I also believe I put the simulation on repeat before I left. Everything before 2013 and up to 2016 never changes ever. Its been looping for eternity.
Furthest in time ive been is 2136 and 3000. Not sure what the difference is. Everything looks the same tech wise…unless clocks were ■■■■■■with lol.
You know how these things work, one man’s delusion is another man’s unusual belief. I’m intrigued though about what you understand as “value” of a delusion.
Something that I have noticed is that those times when you “feel like God” that may be of use to you. When you feel like that it is only because we are human and can’t fathom that actuality of God’s existence.
I often get vivid images of the creation of the universe that pass through my mind when this happens so I am inclined to believe that these are God’s thoughts and not mine simply passing through me.
I mean, we can’t ALL be Gods, can we?
I had many mystical experiences. I have the I am God feeling very often
My case is a bit different. I don’t hear voices or have mystical experiences, all I do is run thought experiments on existential issues. I don’t believe my unusual beliefs are delusions.