It started yesterday, or maybe a little the day before. But it’s really bad today. I had to tell my husband so he can keep me safe but I just hate myself so much I just want to die. I’m a worthless piece of ■■■■. I don’t even know why my family puts up with me. And of course I think my son would be better off without me. I don’t know what to do to change my thinking, it keeps hitting me in waves. As soon as I think it’s gone it comes back and hits harder. I just want it to be over, I can’t stand this feeling or my own brain.
Yes I have been having the same. What works is best is go do some menial activity that requires some focus. Like go volunteer at an animal shelter cleaning/walking dogs. It keeps your mind busy and away from those thoughts.
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I think you need some positive quotes and affirmations. 
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Sometimes, we just have bad days.
Keep in communication with your husband about how you’re feeling,
And if it gets unmanageable, go to the hospital.
There really isn’t much to do but wait for the “waves” to dissipate.
Your life has value to you, your family and us.
Try to keep distracted and close to your husband.
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I still like you @tera you’re really nice
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U are a good woman terra…we all need u …u are our parents figure…
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You are such an awesome loving lovely lady, Tera. You contribute soooo much to this forum. Please stay safe. We you.
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the waves keep hitting me, I hate this feeling. I called the public health nurse and she had them set an appointment with my pdoc in the morning. I really don’t know what she can do about it but I’ll go. I hate myself
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Thank you for the update, Tera. I’m happy you’ll see you pdoc tomorrow. I love you. 
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Tera, do not think for a moment your children would be better off without you. You are a very nice person and often share experiences many of us can relate to. I too feel worthless at times. You are not worthless.
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I was suicidal today. Im just stuck in a neverending hell. Hope you find some solace.
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Aww hang in there @tera.
This dark feeling shall pass.
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For you, Tera, hoping it helps, if not pls just disregard…
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If you need someone to talk to do not forget the suicide hotline phone number.
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I’m so sorry, will it ever, ever go away? What more can I do? I swear I’m trying, I just can’t get a grip - just a few days ago I had hope, things seemed within reach - now it’s all gone! I’ll never be happy ever, ever again.
I feel I’m going to die
So sorry you’re going through this, Tera…
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@tera. It really will get better. Just a few days ago you felt better and so you will again in the future.
It really is like a rolling wave that you sometimes need to just ride out until you find yourself in tranquil waters again.
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I used to feel the same way or let’s say I feel the same way sometimes. There’s always bad and good things that comes and goes in peoples’ life. It depends on you either which one you want to hold on and stay still. I have gone through that situation where you feel like your life sucks. You feel like you are the cause of everything. But trust me, apart from the bad things happening in your life, take a sight on the good things that are happening around you. I got my happiness back by staying close with my family and removing all those negative vibes and so-called friends. It will be hard but trust me suicide is not the solution for it.
Think about your son. If you just die, your husband is gonna cry for few days or weeks and already get a new wife. The one who is gonna suffer is your son. Think about it if you love your son. 
I go through lot of depression and desolation but suicide is not what i think about. (Sorry for my English. I got grade ‘E’ in GP. )
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@tera For a child, no one can replace the place of a mother. Trust me.
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