Just a bit of a vent really.
Every so often like today I get a bit down about what could have been.
BUT I don’t blame schizophrenia completely.
There were other factors in the mix that kind of made a negative difference to my fate. But I feel like I’ve been robbed of my life. Because of the harsh realities of life other than schizophrenia.
Anyway like I said. Just venting…
I totally understand. I’m so sorry 
You’ve always been calm and reasoned on this forum. Scratching the affliction, I could see you as a Leader in some capacity in real life…perhaps as a first responder or teacher.
Sza really ruined my life. I lost everything to it. But, I was one of the lucky ones. I ended up with a great life in spite of losing everything. It really is an overly dramatic story. But, I’ve been through hell and back to put it concisely.
You just got to accept and move on and make the best of what you got…
You gotta play the cards you were dealt is how i normally view life.
Well I can relate to this. I too feel like I’ve been robbed of my life, but I can’t say it’s due to sz. Some of it is my own stupidity.
I keep on believeing I’m going to get my old life back. It’s all I have.
I feel like schizophrenia robs us of a picture perfect life because, humans are social creatures and this illness takes it away from us. And by becoming less social we can’t reach a full potential.
Life was easy and great before mental illness. I could have achieved a lot. I’m learning to be content now with what I have.
I think about this sort of thing everyday,
What could have been had I chosen another path.
Its a waste of time and energy.
I understand the need to vent though,
So let it out.
I am satisfied with how things have turned out for me. Things could have gone worse.
Just be patient and wait for the singularity and will be fine.
I don’t think I had any “lost potential”. In fact the drugs kept me from being potentially dead, imprisoned, or committed to an asylum at a younger age even though they didn’t make me “normal”. I was created to fail.
I guess it sucks if you had potential and lost it due to illness. It’s so far back when I first started getting ill that it’s hard to remember if I had much.
I try not to think about what could have been and just focus on doing the best I can with what I’ve got. I have lost some things over the years that were meaningful to me but it is what it is. Nothing I can do about it now.
reminds me of a tune
I was trying to go to Madrid University as an exchange student when I got pregnant with my daughter (I was raped). I passed my Spanish proficiency exam and everything.
cry it out everhopeful even if it is without tears and in silence. sz turns lots of us into tragedy histories.
best of luck in waking up to a better morning tomorrow. judy
I’ve done a lot with my life in spite of having sza, as I’ve demonstrated on other threads. I won’t be retiring at age 67 from nursing, like I had planned, but that is ok. I just retired from it very early. I had a chance to do a lot of other things, because I wasn’t in nursing. And that’s alright by me.