So remember my friend who we bought the ticket for Arcade Fire? Well she sold the ticket. I gave mine to our other friend, so she can have company to go with. I’m still going to Radiohead with them but now I really don’t want to go. And if by a miracle they decide to sell that ticket too, I won’t have a ride I won’t be able to go as well. And that’s fine, I really don’t care at this point.
Another one of my friends sent me an email saying I’m satanic… That one, he’s not well, heavily paranoid, I can’t really help him, he despises all kinds of medicine and big pharma and the rest of the things we all know and adore.
One of my best friends she’s stuck on a relationship with a sociopath and I can’t be around her much because she starts talking like him and he’s an assh*le, and it’s highly triggering so I won’t talk about it. But I miss her when she wasn’t with him and told her bluntly I dislike her with him, maybe I shouldn’t but well, I did it anyway.
My best friend in the whole world hasn’t come to Portugal in about two years, I was really psychotic the last time I saw him and he’s keeping his distance, just checking on me from time to time.
The rest of the people I know well, since I don’t drink or go to parties, I’m boring as hell to be around, me talking is about serious issues and I can’t really talk about things that don’t interest me. So I keep my distance, and now I feel lonely as hell.
All my crushes crash and burn, I fall in love with the wrong guys so now I refuse to fall in love. Adding to the loneliness.
Well, sorry for the long post, thank you if you read it, I’ll shut up now.