Are these the three friends you talked about yesterday? Sorry about this minnii
I assure you you’re not boring, maybe to them, because they can’t be entertained without drink or drug, they’re the boring ones…
I hope you find good real friends and feel better. They’re hard to come by but worth it to search for.
You always have us 
if you’re feeling lonely.
Yeah, but the first one I mention i don’t count as a friend, because I don’t know her for that long and she’s always bringing some sort of drama my way.
Thanks yous!! 
I know I can count on you guys.
PS- I just ate a bag of skittles in under five minutes.
I’m almost in the exact same boat when it comes to the not fitting in/high functionality parts plus I’ve never had a serious relationship. I’m scared because most of my friends are moving on with their careers and/or relationships/marriage. I have 3 friends, a close friend from high-school days whose way too attached to her boyfriend, a gay friend who only hangs out with me out of convenience and my half-sister who’s pregnant and getting married.
I recently lost a really good (or so I thought) friend due to my illness (we were unsuccessful as room-mates and got into a huge argument) and now its mostly my mom and I. Its hard to be around my mother because she is sick too but unmedicated. I wish I could meet people who were like-minded but its so hard.
I’m hoping once I start school again, I’ll meet some interesting people there 
Yeah I was supposed to go back to college this year but it didn’t work that way, one part I chickened out about being the right degree, other part I just self sabotaged because I thought I couldn’t do it again (very afraid of failure here, all about perfection). In the meantime my symptoms are gone and now I regret not trying, but well, there is still time, I’ll go next year.
I’m sure you’ll find good people in college, sounds tough dealing with your mom, I read your other posts, seems like you go through a lot, need a little time for yourself alone. College will do you good.
Thank-you Minni . What is it that you contemplated studying?
I’m going to volunteer on the field to be sure, but special ed teacher.
Nice. I thought about doing that when I was a teenager but I’m not a huge fan of kids these days.
Lol, that’s okay, it’s not for everybody
Oh @Minnii, I’m sorry you’re feel lonely. You are so sweet and thoughtful here on the forum. You deserve supportive and healthy friendships and relationships IRL.
You seem to be a deep thinker too. I know you’re not attending college right now, but have you considered maybe joining in on activities with the local college crowd (maybe the slightly older students who are more serious). Maybe discussion groups focused on books, poetry, philosophy, sociology, or whatever areas that might interest you.
Also, doing volunteer work in an area that interests you would put you together with like-minded people.
And last but not least, the best solution to any problem is kittens. Hopefully your new kitten will help cheer you up!
I definitely need to go back to college, I regret so much not applying this year, it was a huge mistake, but well it’s done, no point in crying about it now. I’ll volunteer this year. That crowd is very closed, I need to meet people but I don’t leave the house to go to those places. Maybe once I get my drivers license I can get out more. Public transportations I dread.
Thanks so much @Moonbeam, you’re always a ray of sunshine, and @Sunshine is always a moon beam also 
Lol
hugs tight
I’m sorry, sweetie. That really sucks with your friends being so out of sync with where you’re at. It gets harder to meet people, the older you get.
I think you should take action about volunteering. Just having some plans in place might help how you’re feeling, plus you’ll get the chance to meet some people who have similar interests and goals. It seems like a lot of your friends aren’t ready or willing to grow up. Maybe meeting people who already have will help.
All my 
to you.
You seem to be getting healthier and mote stable… You might find yourself focusing on the desire for a relationship because you can sense your becoming ready and capable.
You are a warm and awesome person minnii… Beyond that you actually understand what a good relationship is about.
Your past might leave you feelig undeserving but you are wiser for it and you made it out alive. You’re golden @minnii you are going to make someone very happy someday.
Peace out girly… 
Thank you honey, you always say the right things I know, and I’m playing hard to get also, perks of being less confident than I used to be. But I’ll get back on track eventually.
Tears in my eyes.
You’re awesome B
@Minnii you’re too good looking to be boring !! don’t beat yourself up !! I know it’s easier said than done, I beat myself up all the time but I wish I didn’t. Sorry about not getting to get to go to the concert. heart breaking…just because you don’t drink doesn’t make you boring !! I’m proud of you for not drinking !!
Lol Thanks Juke, I’ll look myself in the mirror more often than
I’m going to Radiohead anyway, even if I need to get out of the house three hours earlier and go alone to the crowd.
This is great! You love that band, don’t let anything hold you back from seeing them live!
I am sorry you are feeling lonely. I think I sort of know how you feel. All my friends live in a different state and it’s hard to keep in touch with them because they all have such busy lives.
One of my best friends has just got a girlfriend. I was trying to open up to him about my recent woes and mistakes and he just started going on about having a girlfriend.
Sometimes I just want to cut people out of my life entirely because it would be easier not to deal with it. It is hard to connect with people (and all my friends are pretty much normies, although depression is common amongst them). Especially if those people drink and drug and you don’t really want to do that.
It makes it hard for conversation of course if all someone does is drink and drug because that’s inevitably all they talk about. If you want to have a deeper conversation, it is almost impossible.
I feel for you minnii. It’s not a nice feeling to be going through, loneliness. Hugs to you 
Thanks turtle, means a lot
I don’t think I expressed myself very well in my post. But I hope you picked up on the main message, that I am sorry you are feeling lonely.
You don’t deserve to feel anything less than brilliant because you are.
eeee run!! My friend was with a sociopathic dude during our initial reunion friendship and he once jumped in my car without my permission and wouldn’t get out! I was threatening to call the police and he just kept pretending to make phone calls to my friend and saying she said it was fine! Another time, he would use her cell phone to text me messages while pretending to be her! He did this routinely.
I was so sick of that I quit being her friend. You can’t save everybody, @Minnii, sometimes you gotta cut your losses and keep yourself safe!
There’s this story in Natural Born Killers, the Native American dude hands his grandson a live rattlesnake. He tells a story about snakes, about a woman who picked up a snake because it swore it wouldn’t bite her, that is was just misunderstood. She picked it up and after a while the snake bit her. She cried, “why would you bite me?” The snake said, I bit you because I’m a snake and it’s what we do.
don’t play with snakes! ~Best advice I can give