I want to feel certain that I am sane, but I’ve been experiencing this bizarre occurrence for a many months now: People are literally repeating my inward thoughts to me.
Based on everything I’ve read, it would appear to be a delusion. However I’ve had irrefutably uncanny experiences where people have almost verbatim repeated my inward dialogue. It feels as if people somehow have access to my mind. I’ve experienced people using my own logic/thoughts against me. Also when I think the most obscure things, I somehow witness some type of manifestation of it, either A) someone will repeat it to me shortly after, or B) I will come across it somehow in like an advertisement online, or a social media post specifically relating to this very peculiar thing I’ve thought. I know these can dismissed as mere coincidence but the frequency of it feels uncanny.
I’ve also been experiencing a lot of “synchronicities”, also sometimes the things I think about happen (I think about a person I haven’t heard from in ages and call or text shortly after). I have been seeing a psychiatrist for a year now, but still no diagnosis. The last time I asked him if thinks I have any condition, his response was that he feels my symptoms are a little too mild to suggest anything severe…
Because of this I’m increasingly feeling frustrated that I’m unable to get any answers or help for my situation. Another strange thing is that my a few days before my last visit to the psychiatrist (which was early this month) I was reading in forums about people with my experience. Somebody mentioned something about it relating to Divine Providence and and spirituality and whatnot. The bizarre thing is during my appointment with the psychiatrist, after I discussed with him my experiences, he literally repeated what I had read about. He said to me he believes in Divine Providence and that sometimes God can intervene in the universe and things can happen etc etc.
Initially I felt comforted that he wasn’t telling me I’m crazy, but in retrospect I feel like: why didn’t he give me actual medical/scientific advice??? Why is he talking to me about spirituality and why did he literally repeat what had read about a short while before? (divine providence and all that) It’s almost like he’d seen it in my mind.
I feel a little trapped in that it’s as if I don’t get real perspectives from people when I seek help or advice, even professionals. People literally tell me what I have thought to myself when I ask questions. I strangely feel like things are an outward expression of my own mind.
Have any of you experienced this, and how have you over come it?
That’s called “thought broadcasting” and “ideas of reference” (the thing with the synchronicities.)
They are pretty metaphysical phenomena, but ultimately, good treatment reduces the likelihood of these things happening.
What seems to make sense is that the chronically inflamed brain (which is being hypothesized as the cause for schizophrenia) produces too much adrenaline out of stress, which ends up pooling in the brain due to the inflammation inhibiting its metabolization, causing it to oxidize and form “adrenochrome”, which is a potent psychedelic and basically makes you trip 24/7. The harder you’re “tripping” (the worse the inflammation is, in other words,) the more likely it is you’ll experience that metaphysical stuff.
Sounds to me as though you need a different psychiatrist. One that won’t speak to you of divine providence and who will speak to you of medical/scientific advice. And one willing to give a diagnosis. Welcome to the forum.
Actually some of what you say like thinking about something and then it happens is attaching too much meaning on coincidence it can happen with schizophrenia. Also you seem intelligent so its possible your making accurate predictions about future events but then attributing it to outside influences when infact its just good deductive reasoning. I think maby see a different Pdoc if your symptoms bother you, what dose of risperidone are you on?
Yes, I’ve been learning about “ideas of reference” so what you say does make sense. I’m on 1mg currently. My doctor hasn’t suggested any changes to the dosage or medication despite what I’ve discussed with him so I don’t know now.
thought broadcasting, i had quite a huge experience upon this subject. even a few days back i had the “relapse”. Good medication really helps, but most importantly it’s your thinking (mindset) there was a time when i had meds but i still felt my thoughts were broadcasted, so if you want a good effective solution to this issue would be to take meds and to instill good values and mindset for yourself. initially, i thought my thought broadcasting was me talking without me knowing but i used my webcam and video capture myself in front of my computer for 1 to 2 mins, and i re-view it myself. The truth? i did not see my lips moving nor my head moving about that looked like i spoke anything for the whole 2 mins.
so… conclusion after this test: theoretically proven impossible, due to the fact that my lips did not move, body language showed no signs of possible vocal expressions.
solution for me: To view at this issue with logic and reasonings.
i ever tried explaining how thought broadcasting affect me to one of my colleagues, so i told her, an analogy that why we schizophrenia felt that our thoughts can be linked to radio station, (i was working in a petrol pump station), so i told her saying for example “petrol station”, after 3 seconds the radio guy said “coupons” which then i told her, here is how we linked, we linked by coupon and petrol station because by normal means petrol stations gives out coupons to attract customers to buy more so to let them earn more. But due to this “linked,” we somehow felt that the radio knew our thoughts, but it’s just “superbly coincidence that is out of the world for us schizophrenia” our ability to link between things (common area) is our cause to this brokenness, but yet if you use it in a good way (the way of the normal), we can easily find a lot of common grounds between a lot of things. So in short, it’s our weakness yet our strength and due to this fact it’s working as a double-edged sword to us.
oh and to add, I ever reached to the point of thought broadcasting that I felt that people around me are Replying to my thoughts, so I feel you man. ^^
I struggle with thought broadcasting, too. I didn’t read your entire original post (sorry, I’m terrible at reading long blocks of text. Nothing personal), but I’ve had similar experiences as you. Then when I got put on meds, it sort of went away. Not entirely, but it’s much more manageable now.
not people but voices repeat my thoughts trying to make me angry so i will do their will
they are playing a game of who can say what first and the other person has to be creative and say something else or sign what he says lol. competing to be me actually. but i try to railroad all those jokers and do what i know is right. but they sure are slow in being trained lol. it is so monotonous. so i have to bypass the whole thing lol
