I also have concern about telling people that I am schizophrenic. we’re taught by society that schizophrenics are bad people. we’re all still in the closet, and it’s hard to be proud of being a schizophrenic. Yet, I’m happy that I’m schizophrenic. It’s opened up a new world to me.
I can’t say what was the worst feeling I have ever experienced because, I have so many. One time I was put in jail for hitting a nurse that was trying to grab me which was a reflex. When I was in jail I thought that I was the reincarnation of Hitler, that made me feel like the worst person in existence, and to make up for the Holocaust I had to turn the cell red with my blood. I punched the concrete blocked cell for hours until my hands were bloody. Another time I thought if I ate any food I would kill 6 billion people and after 3 days of starving I ate a cracker, so yeah to put it mildly that was not a good feeling. Then there was the time I thought if I went to the bathroom it would kill my sister, so I did not urinate for a couple of days and was planning on making my bladder explode, that was another good one. Then there was the idea of being damned to Hell for eternity, and of course there is no way to disprove this since we do not know what happens when we die, so yeah this caused anxiety to such extreme levels I think I have PTSD. I thank God for medication, because it pulled me out of these delusions. Thankfully all this delusional thinking happened 15 years ago when I started to get SZ, and I no longer have any horrible delusions like these.
This too, on a daily basis
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@maynard (cool name). What’s your diagnosis?
I got put in jail once for striking a mental health worker in a hospital. It’s hard getting by in there when your psychotic and the other inmates can tell. I was involved in numerous fights with the Mexicans because they don’t like crazy people I guess.
Are you a tool fan? I think they’re one of the greatest bands of all time but I can’t listen to them right now because they reminds me of my girlfriend who died in a motorcycle accident
Being diagnosed with sz !!! There can’t be a God!!!
Oh there is a god he just has a sick sense of humor
To make people commit suicide
If u believe in God u must believe in Santa maybe
Yea sz is like being stuck in s mouse trap.
You don’t have too many options
Yeah it’s awful
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I don’t believe in Santa but I do believe in a higher power
…SATAN CLAWS 
… Coming soon to a home near you
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My diagnosis is Paranoid Schizophrenia. Yeah it is no fun being in jail, especially when you are psychotic. I was lucky enough to not being put in general population. That would have been really really bad. Yeah I am a Tool fan. I am so sorry to hear about your girlfriend. I wish you the best.
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Thanks man. Keep your head up. There’s new treatments coming out someday soon. I’ve had some powerful delusions too. Time can heal though.
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I was arrested my first episode and put in general population , felt like most everyone was after me. It was terrifying. Luckily there was a guy with a mental illness that talked me into telling the pdoc about what was going on (my delusions that I had no idea weren’t real) they got me to a psych ward pretty quickly. Not fun to be involved with the court system when you’re sz.
I am sorry to hear that you had to experience jail during an episode, but I am glad to hear there was someone to help you make it through it. Yeah, it is definitely tough dealing with the court system when you are ill.
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Neuroleptic dysphoria.