Just the number one worst thing
For me, its the concern that EVERYBODY turns into a hallucination type of person, so then I am left all alone on the planet. With a load of not real people including those closest to me :’(
I was close to it happening since the whole public went not real and my family’s eyes went all different like there was a different person in them. ■■■■■■
What about you?
Biggest worry for me is the voices corrupting my passage to the “other side” somehow, maybe sending me somewhere I don’t want to go.
The fear.
Fear of being chosen, the responsibilities.
Fear the the voices are right and I’m these horrible things they call me.
Fear that everyone hates me and just wants me gone.
Fear I’m faking it.
Fear of the places the voices tell me I’ll go.
That’s what’s effecting me most right now
How can you be faking it if you hear voices?
That is illness
Hope you get better x
For me it is the persistence of the symptoms. Medications only suppress them. They won’t go away.
I did stupid things and ruined my reputation because of psychosis and delusions. These actions were very unlike my typical behavior and thought processes. I feel like I lost my free will and became a very different person because of things that were totally beyond my control.
It was very destructive to my life and also humiliating. I feel like a totally different person than I was before I started to manifest these symptoms. Not in a good way.
I’m sorry to hear that @AgonyApathy
I hope you can manage to reverse the things u did whilst you were psychotic
I said some stupid stupid stupid things wen I was deluded! So maybe I can relate so embarrassing idk if I’m prepared to say on here
Yeah, I wouldn’t want to give the full details of everything either. The worst of it is that the timing was awful. It happened during my divorce, and as a result I ended up not getting any custody or even visitation of my child, who I haven’t seen since April.
It HURTS. We were very close and spent lots of time together every day.
Much of what happened can’t be undone, but I’m trying to put my shattered life back together and move forward from it.
I’m sure you will be able to get it back together. It takes time stamina and such…
Good luck I’m rooting for you.
Hope you get to see your child soon enough too, I can’t even imagine what that is like, being childless myself. Will you go to court over that?
I’ve been dealing with the illness for 20 years and I fear that how I am now is as good as it gets. I don’t think I will ever return to a normal life.
Have the meds kept your voices under control through out those 20 years.
To a degree. Over the years symptoms have sometimes been under control but always find a way to return, so it’s constant med changes and adjustments. As of right now I feel the best I have in years overall.
I’m glad ur feeling the best so far that’s good to hear.
Thank you. My doctor has found a med combination that is really making a difference.
It is the worst emotional pain I’ve ever felt. I lost my appeal hearing, and I’m more or less at my ex’s mercy. She doesn’t seem to have any, lol.
Personally, I lost a lot.
I lost someone I loved-- granted if they really loved me they’d still be here, probably. He did a lot for me and helped me out during our 5.5 year relationship, but I guess when my symptoms got worse he couldn’t handle it anymore.
More importantly, you can lose yourself. It’s been a struggle to regain aspects of my personality, like sense of humor and social skills. Getting there day by day, though.
This illness takes a lot, but also shows you what’s truly important sometimes.
Yea… So true
… I think it is the humangous knock of our confidence in who we actually are since the voices and then meds just overwhelmingly take over our mind and body… That makes us forget our strengths at least temporarily
I’m sorry to hear about your relationship that’s tough 
hope you have moved on with time @Schztuna
Yea loss of confidence is huge. The whole experience is earth and mind-shattering, which messes with internal confidence. Not to mention the APs really mess with weight and external confidence.
Takes a lot to get back to feeling somewhat okay after all that. Props to everyone going through this and staying strong.
Thanks @anon90843118-- healing with time 
We’ve got this 
For me, the hardest thing was the voices. When I was in my last break, the voices would repeat everything the other person said to me. So, it was impossible to have a conversation or listen to someone else speak. I couldn’t watch television because of the voices and lack of focus.
Lack of focus is probably tied with voices, actually. I couldn’t hardly do anything because of my lack of focus. Everything overwhelmed me. I was so suicidal because there was nothing I could do but sit and stare at the wall.