So its been a long time that its like this. I knew other ill girls, they had at least this - men in their lives. Me, never any guy didn’t tell me that he loves me. I try not to want much from the life since I know that I am seriously ill, but I suffered a lot that nobody didn’t like me. I was always aware that something is wrong with me… Bunch of things - I couldn’t take good care of myself even before the diagnosis cause I was ill. I had big transpiration and redness of my body cause I was ultra stressed always… I cant even talk, my personality was always non existante. I look terribly depressed and my ex(sex partner) told me that I cant think at all and that I have ‘‘nothing’’ in the eyes… Its a bit too much no? ok, he is a dumb but I am not a human anymore with all this now 
. The problem is that me too cant love anymore cause I cant feel pleasure etc etc… Its hard for the stable sz to find a partner, what does the non stabled have, really?.. hah…
and yes, I hate what Zyprexa makes to me. It makes me even dumber and it smashes physically my brain, this is the feeling that I have from it 
I’m sorry you are depressed…maybe try prolixin…no sexual side effects…I am on the generic fluphenazine…good luck.
Well in the US the vast majority of seriously mentally ill people are single.
For me I was a zombie from 15-34 and couldn’t work, even though I applied for some jobs twice anyway. Maybe I can work once my physical health is better but I’ve figured out when your an adult with no work history you’re dismised out of hand. Maybe they figure such a person must have serious mental or physical issues .
Not having a job is really not sexy. There must be single MI women that don’t work that are my age in the area. Maybe they’d be turned off by my joblessness too.
I’ve got no real way to meet anyone. Perhaps when my current support group is over I can try one from the other treatment center.
I doubt I’ll get anywhere.
To have any chance there would have to be several suitable women.
I mean if there’s only one or two the odds of even mutual interest are slim.
So far I’ve seen 0.
I can’t just go up and talk to women while I buy groceries. They’re probably not single and wil likely think I’m a weirdo in any case.
I totally get what you’re saying.
Yeah I’m going through that now but i’m older and physically ill too. Had a wonderful husband but he passed away. Doc said computer and adult coloring books, geez, I miss a special someone.
Do i think my sz is sexy?
To estonian men im sexy. I think sz woman could be sexy.
And i know a woman who is 45 and never had a boyfriend and she doesnt have sz.
I hope you can meet someone suitable @IndustrialLad. I really don’t think a single lady who is also unable to work would be turned off by your employment situation. But, yeah, just talking to strangers in grocery stores doesn’t go over well in my area either - lol. I hear you.
Sorry for your loss @finally.
For the most part, I’ve just grown indifferent to it all - apathy is the word for it.
I am just dumb on my ap kerli. My mom is Russian you know? I am too low functioning to have somebody. I cant even sit with somebody on one table to eat in peace. I need to pace, you see, kerli??? this is my actual state
You talk about your negatives Anna, but you have many positives 
what positives frings? In the evenings, I see everything dark. and I am sorry to bother you so much…
@IndustrialLad I get hit on often by men in support group and I have gotten messages and I really don’t know how other women feel but I really don’t like it. Some say things like “I wish I could date just one of you” to the only 3 women in the room who have boyfriends lol. I think a woman having mi or joblessness will not make them more likely to date you. I would want to find someone mentally healthy and has a job. However you’d be surprised how women with jobs might be open to someone like you since they don’t care as much about money. My ex was poor and many of his girlfriends used to buy him nice stuff. Try looking online and don’t give up. I personally think getting in a relationship is easier to do than making friends or working, so it is a good step forward.
@anon62973308 I would feel…maybe emasculated isn’t the right word…but someone spending lots of money on me knowing I can’t return the favor would not feel good.
These guys that hit on these women that weren’t single, did they know they weren’t single? If so that’s a feeling best left unexpressed with words. Or at least they should share their thoughts quietly with a male friend.
I don’t know if you are right or wrong that joblessness or mi doesn’t make a a difference on their end, but it’s not just the thought that they’d be more likely to want me.
I would prefer if me and a mate were pretty much equals. I understand no couple are alike in every way, but working and making money are a big thing in society. I can picture a woman’s family telling her “Why are you with this guy who doesn’t even work?”
I tried Tinder, no luck there. Which ones have you used? I’ve heard Zoosk is a scam.
Match and okcupid.
Personally I can’t go for someone with a history of mi because it puts kids at risk. Also having someone with a job would give me more stability if I wanted to eventually live with them. Finances are important and 2 people with mi and no money would have difficulty raising kids.
That makes sense. Myself I don’t want kids. Actually at 37 aging would possibly result in the production of kids that aren’t healthy if I tried. Of course most women my age have kids of their own so that presents difficulties. Well unless they’re a little older and have kids that are almost full grown I guess.
Match is where my mom met her boyfriend but there are rather serious issues with him.
Thanks, Tomasina.
I’ve tried dates from both websites. Match tends to have people 5-10 years older than me and the last guy who got my number on okcupid was 5 years younger than me? I put “serious relationships only” and have not gotten any funny business. Okcupid has a tendency to have younger guys who are a bit weird, working odd jobs, etc and tend to be better looking and nicer. and Match tends to have older guys with better jobs and are generally “set up” but have their own personality differences as well. I get like 10 messages a day on okcupid and maybe only 2 on match. I think the main barrier to finding someone, if you are a girl, is if you are fat. Idk. Anyhow I’m sure everyone finds someone in the end and it is happily ever after. I believe you can have a truly fulfilling life with this illness and if you can handle relationships, go for it!
I think if you are a girl, there is a good chance you only need a month or two to get someone serious if you aren’t too picky. I generally reply to only 2/10 messages, not because some guys are worse but simply because personality and looks are an issue.
Tukey, you seem to be fine now in life no? I guess you knew the suffering too but the meds helped you, is that right? And just one thing- dont believe that there is a gene of sz… there are psychological factors too. For the most of us, we had terrible lives. Its problematic the cause of sz, the docs say currently that the cause is multifactorial… gosh, sorry for my honesty tonight,but this lithium just made me pissed off…
Thank you… You are right. I am doing much better now but I had my share of suffering due to the illness before meds helped. Never want to go back there. You will find somebody. There is someone out there for everyone.
I just wanted to say that its still not sure for anybody that this illness is genetic, really. On this, I am sure. Ive read a lot about it. Otherwise, the toughest part in my case is my hope which I put on the treatment for the last 8 years and I was miserable for all this time in fact. I just gained weight, my peridos stopped, I have facial hair now on my face because of the meds, I am fat and I am dying slowly on this Zyprexa and I cant even go to see some doctors for all these med related problems that I have now cause I am still paranoid. Its a bit too much… but whatever, maybe some med will help me one day, idk. I wait still for the lithium to see. I don’t look for a partner now,its too much - ill and ugly…
@Anna1, please don’t close yourself in room. Go out side with friends and family. Accept disability. Don’t try to overcome it. Its fact. Look how the people working, children are playing, this will give you some relief. I think.
My illness has stolen every chance of a romantic relationship from me too. Although I have had many lovers throughout my life, none of them have ever worked out. And that is all because of my illness every time.