I may cling to my husband a bit in public when I am scared, and I hold my keys as though they are a weapon when I walk through the parking lot because I am scared that people will attack me. I am not sure if this is socially unacceptable, maybe just a little weird.
I am not usually unkempt in public. I am very particular about taking baths before I go out, so much so that I will not go out if I have not bathed. This may mean staying indoors despite needing things. As for bizarre or atypical appearance, well, I suppose you’d have to ask the locals. I wear cowboy boots but live in an area where this is decidedly atypical.
I don’t know. I don’t think so, but I can’t be sure.
No, I am not. I don’t have friends. I go to church sometimes, but not regularly. I will be meeting a lady from church for lunch this week, and I am very nervous about it. Maybe she will be a friend.
Maybe one of being unreliable. I am not very good at attending church regularly, and everyone knows it. It’s been that way for over seven years. That’s the only place where I interact with others outside of my family and doctors.
I mostly live in the real world nowadays, but sometimes it becomes fantasy in a bad way. It becomes too dark, too harsh, too insurmountable. I have to really focus on goals and try to keep my spirits up when this happens. I guess I spend a lot of time daydreaming too.
Probably. I spend a lot of time daydreaming in the hopes that it will keep my spirit up. I try to focus on my goals so that I don’t focus too much on the bad things that are happening right now, because right now, I’m falling apart and my life is a wreck. I try to remember that things will get better, so I invest a lot of time looking up all of the good things that I plan to have or do. I only say strange things in that I stick my foot in my mouth an inordinate amount of times. For anyone reading this, if you see me on here again, don’t be surprised when you see this happen! My strangest idea is that my hallucinations may be real.
I think I can fit in when I need to. I can blend.
I am not sure. On the one hand, I think I go unnoticed because nothing is ever said or done to make me think otherwise. On the other hand, I feel like I am stared at or that people are thinking bad things about me, so I just don’t know.