with your SZ/SZA. Can you get away without you looking disabled? I mean in everyday settings with treatment and medication. Can you act normal without medication?
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I don’t look “disabled” … I might come across as normal to some , weird to others but I certainly dont feel normal
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I know for a fact I can get away it. I can pass as normal for short/medium interactions. Nobody is any the wiser.
The problem is my brother’s wife’s family all know I have schizophrenia. So whenever I’m at an extended family gathering it’s awkward. I get the “he’s a schitzo” vibe from them.
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I act normal, or I don’t put myself in front of people. I get trapped in my head ruminating over the same things, and I’ve been told I’m lazy a lot, but I’m figuratively paralyzed. I have really obsessive thoughts. I don’t commonly talk out loud to my voices much anymore tho, just sometimes. I do worry I react to external auditory hallucinations in front of others, I get self conscious if I look in the direction it came from bc it’s hard to tell if they’re real or not.
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I don’t act normal. I’m accepted but I seem more vulnerable when in town.
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I can pass for a normie for short periods of time until my anxiety shows up and it’s game over.
My family knows I have SZA/bipolar and most of them treat me as if I were 12 years old.
It’s annoying to say the least
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I live in a group home. I’m treated as I’m 8. Patronised really.
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I sometimes think if I did come out as having psychosis and wanted to get treatment, the people who know me won’t believe me bc I’m extremely careful to hide it around them that I present as normal, even tho my heads a warzone.
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I’m sure my Nurse reads what I’m writing so hi there.
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@fractaled how can you hide it?
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Bc I’m terrified of being forced into a hospital, and sedated, and everyone taking everything I have if I’m gone for a while. I know if they knew I heard voices, they’d want me sedated and if I’m not alert how can I protect myself? So I stay quiet for my safety.
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You stay in control @fractaled. It isn’t pleasant being hospitalised
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If im not having an episode yeah im pretty normalish
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I’m really scared they’d want to hospitalize me. I can’t be without my dogs, they’re the only comfort I have, and I have no one to take care of them if I’m hospitalized. It would destroy me if I came out of the hospital and my boys were gone.
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I can’t help it. I get very delusional and psychotic. I’m screaming from the roof tops.
I’ve been well for awhile. I still get obsessive thoughts but they are manageable .
When people look at me they think I am shy or socially incompetent but not schizophrenic I am weird to them introvert stupid sometimes but nobody has called me schizo or crazy I keep my crazy thoughts to myself
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No i don’t appear normal
My eyes look like i haven’t slept probably because of meds
my anxiety is extreme
In the shop im always paranoia and intrusive thoughts as well as anxiety
Im sure the shopkeepers suspect but i try hard to keep it together
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I pass for normal the vast majority of the time. That is, until I say something that gives away my paranoia or psychosis, or until I do or say something inappropriate.
I think more than a few people could tell by my gait and physical mannerisms while walking that I’m a bit off beat. Sitting in a chair,or standing still, talking to someone not so much