I was incapable of taking meds for a while. I had a very bad experience, with extreme side effects/bad reaction, and my interpretation was that the medication made me lose my soul and go to hell and were from satan. I also read a lot of scary scientific info. Whenever the forced treatment stopped, I would immediately quit meds and relapse a while later. Be put back on, quit, relapse, repeat.
I became a little less scared of meds and I now use a baby dose, which just keeps me stable. For me being forced to use them for half a year and noticing it keeps me stable enough to be there for my son and not bring sadness and fear to my family made the difference.
I still keep the hope of one day slowly withdrawing, I need that, but I would never cold turkey again and always be very careful.