I also hate schizophrenia, but I feel I can be reasonably successful even with the handicap it creates.
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I hated being diagnosed with schizophrenia. The worst thing for me was getting post-traumatic stress but that’s mostly gone now.
I felt that PTSD. I almost ran my mom over in my car. I think about it all the time
I’m the first one in our family to be diagnosed mentally ill. It was long overdue. I’m just the obvious sufferer. My siblings were also successful. But my life is relatively leisurely to be positive about it.
Yes I have post traumatic things I’m still dealing with. I am finally slowly getting it out of my system that I will go to hell after death. I think it was symbolic for hell on earth. And or it was the way the illness works, instill as much fear as possible in me to make me rethink my life.
I totally understand where you’re coming from @Hadeda. But as strange as it might seem, your declaration as such is a sign of insight. And insight leads to acceptance which leads to wellness. Your mind can and will repair itself to whatever extent possible and your quality of life will improve.
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I just got my left hip replaced 18 days ago. Do it, it’ll change your life. I have a bad knee on that leg too, and it hurts more from the surgery, but it’ll get better soon enough.
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Glad to here it. My only problem I live alone and don’t have anyone to take care of me while recovering. I also don’t have anyone to drive me home from the hospital.
I used to compare myself to my sister a lot.
She’s not much younger than me, but she might as well be the older sibling.
Husband, house, cat, car, job, goes to uni, spends time with friends, always looks like a million bucks.
But she has her own struggles, and I’m sure she sometimes envies my more relaxed lifestyle.
She’s always been very self-conscious and has had bouts of anxiety. And she has some lesser common, but severe, allergies that are causing her a lot of issues.
I realised eventually comparing myself to her would do none of us any favours, because I am not her and she is not me. Our paths might look similar, yet lead us in different directions, and that’s okay.
In the end, everyone ends up 6 feet under, and the worms can’t taste whether you had 1 dollar or a million dollars in your account.
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I.ve had this diagnosis since 1992. I went to back to work thru goodwill, then after a slew of janitoral jobs, i. Goit a job areating lawns, making $12 An hour. It was temporary, yet I found out later that my parents were failing, so I helped them, and after 13 yrs if behing their helper. I inherited their money. So, this is a time to learn the healing arts, because if you can heal from this enough to help others, you could really make big money from that.
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You can learn from the library, and thrift stores, the internet. You don.t necessarily need college.
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I learned about psychology, metaphysics, altruism, sociology, interpersonasl skills, empathy, intuition from hard knocks, from just living.
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I hate schizophrenia also, but it is you. Hating yourself don’t get you too far… I’ve noticed. Psychosis sucks and when I came back from delusional world, really nothing was left of me and went almost catatonic and feel really dumb at work and…
I really have nothing positive to say about the disease lol that’s my problem… but this forum and people here makes me positive at times and my family is really supportive. Let’s try to focus on the small good things in life and hope better for the future!!! Together
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I just don’t care anymore, life isn’t about having a good career and making alot of money you just need enough and when you have that make sure you eat and drink and enjoy yourself. In societies eyes I am useless because I cannot produce and serve but for those who love me that isn’t the case.
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My mom said this one day.
"Yes, you have psychosis…
but the neighbour next to our house doesn’t have psychosis but his marriage is falling apart.
but this woman doesn’t have psychosis but she has cancer and she has kids.
but this child doesn’t have a mother.
They would probably want to have schizophrenia instead of losing their mother, losing their job, losing their marriage, and losing their health.
Each burden is heavy, and so is schizophrenia, but everyone has a burden of their own. No one escapes suffering. Everybody suffers."
I think my mom is a wise person. I hold fast to her words.
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Also, another thing: I sometimes wish I just have sz instead of muscular dystrophy because you’re watching yourself degenerate for all these years. Some people wish that they had a mental disorder than having muscular dystrophy.
Having a physical disability sucks. Yes, there’s more stigma attached to sz, but having MD means that your body won’t function no matter how much you tell your body to move. It’s like a nightmare. I think I accepted my disease, but at the same time I hate that I have contractures, and I hate that I will have multitude of health problems like heart diseases and pneumonia. I honestly don’t know how I can get around when I’m bound in a wheelchair after 20 years or something. Like it’s terrifying. I don’t want anyone to go through it.
I know sz sucks, I personally have psychosis too. But other people would think otherwise- and they would think their struggle is the biggest thing in the world. I’m sending you love and comfort.
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What is working for me with it is finding my personal harmony with myself and taking better care of my health. I still have some occasional things I deal with but honestly for the most part things are very smooth because I do everything I can to feed the positives in life and make my environment a place I liek to be in. So much of my improvement has had less to do with my meds, and more to do with self care (and vitamins also). My Dr. even said self care was huge and agreed vitamins sometimes help.
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Schizophrenia is definitely a rollercoaster if ups and downs everyone is different but we all suffer the same
I grew older with sz. These days i take regular medication and passing time on forums like this. I have diagnosed sz for around 30 years. We know so much more about mental health than the past. I moved from one continent to another and made a few certificates. They were times i was deeply depressed but i got over it.
-There is light, not much, but enough to beat the darkness.- Charles Bukowski
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remeber schizophrenia is not cancer so be happy you dont have that. Think positive.
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