I would feel more useless
working in a stupid non creative job,
than being on disability.
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It was higher when I used to work and it was even higher before sz.
But by working you’re contributing to society, making money, social life etc
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Yeah but there are millions of people on disability your not alone
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We have different brains, different expectations, different minds, different goals, etc
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@Aziz , is it possible to talk with your doc and combine abilify with your current meds?
I’m on vraylar and olanzapine!
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My Drs and parents don’t want me on Abilify, it made me manic. I was out of control and violent.
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Ok I understand.
I hope your negs do get better. Being like us sucks!
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How did you accept your disability? I can’t accept it and I can’t accept my sz.
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First of all,
Your brothers are idiots.
They also live at home and are living off their parents.
Second,
You can avoid feeling useless by doing something little everyday towards your recovery.
You absolutely can and need to.
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Its too much for me how disabled I am.
I keep thinking about how good I was doing before sz, tons of friends, best grades in school, working, money, vacations, gf, etc
I was also much healthier, 140lb all muscle one of the fastest in gym class, etc
You build computers. Do that.
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I sincerely doubt this. Stop being dramatic.
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I build my own only. Its stressful and can’t make it a job. Besides even for myself it stresses me and irs very costly.
I always questioned if there was a difference between motivation and discipline because I’ve never felt motivated my whole life.
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I don’t have a choice. I can’t live on the streets unmedicated.
My neighbors talk s h i t about me. They say “he doesn’t work”, “there is something wrong with him”, “he’s mentally ill” etc.
It feels humiliating!
I come from a hard working family. My mom and dad has never had any issues with mental illness and they have always worked. Even when they don’t work they constantly occupy themselves with something.
I do believe we will get better. It just takes time and the right meds.
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They always blame me for my sz so they’re torturing me and don’t want me to die. I tried to kill myself twice but they forced me to go to the emergency.
This is not helpful, ruminating on what you once were. I struggle with this, myself.
What you can do is think about right now. The ruminating is killing you. Then you ask for suggestions, and shoot them all down. Every time you think about what you once were, stop yourself. That would be a good first step.
Or write it all out in a journal, everything you write here. When I write in a journal – a daily morning habit – as I’m writing and obsessing about my problems, I somehow start brainstorming solutions. Try that.
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I am going to take Tylenol maybe it will calm me. I need benzos.