I don’t understand how those on disability avoid the feeling of being useless as they can’t work. Whats the secret? When I used to work I felt better, more confident, felt useful, had fun with money, was never bored, had a healthier lifestyle and was more active etc
I feel like a leech to others, my brothers told me I am sucking the blood of my parents. My parents get mad at me for not working and for not taking care of my health.
I am ashamed among my friends, I am the only one who is not working.
I feel like this too, and before I got ill I had a very negative opinion about people who did not work, until I couldn’t work… I feel bad I was ignorant. Please don’t blame yourself. You are not useless… work isn’t life…put your health first. Always.
I didn’t last a day at my job… go figure.
Nobody is useless just because can not work.we are not living in mordor guys.
You should just do a hobby that teaches you a new skill. You will feel like your being productive that way.
It’s probably the mindlessness of your day that makes you feel like that.
I didn’t work from 2018 till March 2021. But I was still learning stuff when I could.
That’s the key. Be a continuous learner.
@Speedy I have a hard time waking up so I abuse caffeine pills. I have a hard time following routines so I just do whatever pleases me me and what I can do so vaping nicotine, eating, browsing the internet, I can’t read news as they trigger me especially crimes. I can’t read books or watch TV no focus but rarely I watch Netflix but lots of movies make me sleepy like emotional stuff or trigger me like scary movies. I can’t watch supernatural stuff either. Butsometimes I watch simpsons and family guy but lately I lost the drive to do so.
My only hobbies are vaping strong nicotine and browsing this forum. Sometimes I play video games but only for 30min and only when my friend wants to as I can’t play on my own, I end up turning off my PC right after turning it on, I tried a lot, never worked.
I feel like my head is going to explode. It feels paralyzed and frozen.
Well all your activities you mentioned are consumption activities. You want to find an activity where you are the producer or creator. That will be more fulfilling for you.
Even if it’s a few mins a day of something.
It’s hard tho. It’s hard for normies too.
Like what?
155&5
I wouldn’t listen to your brothers I’m sure your parents enjoy having you around how long have you been on risperidone? I’ve been on invega almost 4 years (which is chemical respiridone after it metabolized or something like that) and I just recently felt better
My parents don’t want me to die, they just want me to live and suffer.
It sounds like you suffer from avolition. I also have this issue. It sucks.
I do feel better than before but it’s a slow progress.
If you can’t have routines then I suggest that you try to do what you enjoy as much as possible.
I know what you mean by being triggered. I have the same issue when it comes to certain stuff.
I wish I could give you advice but I’m stuck in the same situation as you are. My mom begged me to vacuum the floors and I haven’t done it and it’s been a week now.
Could you volunteer somehow? There are ways of volunteering online, e.g. Crisis Text Line.
Well you probably aren’t interested in anything. That’s ok though. You can just try something and develop the interest on the way.
Since you spend most time in bed I’d say you should start by watching a tutorial on how to create some sort of digital project
Or blog about your favorite vapes or your favorite networking equipment.
Just ■■■■ around till something becomes fun. Treat life like a game since you like gaming
It would really hurt your family if you weren’t there
Its too stressful.
Working at managing my symptoms, all the crazy delusional ideas, the suicidal ideation is a full time job for me. Im amazed i havent topped myself yet and am still alive.
But the positive thing is that i have a bstard attitude and aint gonna snuff it just to please some homosapian.
MY JOB is remaining stable.
Self-esteem.
-Albert.