I was a sexually abused multiple times by multiple males. Very badly physically and emotionally abused by my stepmother. She beat me with belts, screamed at me over the stupidest things, would wake me up early to make me go run at the park. I was bullied at school a little bit. All of these things became repressed as time went on and when I became psychotic is what triggered all the memories. I’ve come to terms with a lot of the things and have even forgiven all the people that hurt me and caused me great pain. It was all in the past and the best thing to do is accept it and move forward and forgive everyone involved.
I try not to dwell on too much but have flashbacks sometimes.
I’ve been physically, sexually, and emotionally abused by boyfriends and strangers. My parents were neglectful, but I don’t know if I’d go as far as abusive. My therapist said my mother sounded emotionally abusive, but I don’t know if it’s just the way I remember things or if she actually was. My father was physically abusive to one of my brothers and it really ■■■■■■ me up to watch that, but he never hit me. My brothers did, though. They used to beat the ■■■■ out of me, but again, I think that’s probably just normal siblings being ■■■■ to each other type thing? I don’t know. It’s hard to tell. My memory isn’t so hot anymore and I’ve been through much worse. But, I’ve been abused, yes. By many many people.
I got thrown around like a rag doll and pinned to the floor by my stepdad. He also screamed at maximum volume an inch away from my face, well over a hundred times during my childhood. The first instance of abuse happened when I was 3. He was assembling a treadmill and I asked him what he was doing, he didn’t answer so I kept asking. Eventually he got angry, grabbed me by the throat, slammed me against the wall, and screamed in my face. It’s my earliest memory.