How did you escape death if you did?
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Once i took 15 benzos.
I told my mother and they made me vomit.
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Added a trigger warning. Please peeps. It’s not a competition.
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I want people to talk about it.
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I thought that if one benzo makes you a zombie,
then 15 would definitely kill me.
And I didn’t do it out of depression.
But the opposite. I was thinking “what a
beautiful day to die, sun is warm, day is fine, ok
let’s do it”.
Fortunately I didn’t succeed.
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No drama’s but it’s a sensitive community. Please be respectful and thus why I left this open for discussion. I’ve had serious ideation throughout my life and I’m glad I never acted on it. Most people here would be in the same boat.
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Hmm. . .
Nothing Escapes Death.
No Matter How Great. No Matter How Small.
Each One, And Each Of The All.
~P.s. Hope, Trust, True Love, Honesty, Joy, And Endlessly Eternal Peace!.~ 
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Its a reason why ive been on weekly scripts for years. Had a thing for getting drunk and doing pills. I grew out of it. Not done it in years.
I was always the first to call the ambulance anyway.
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I considered it so many times during the years I was working. I suffered so much at work.
worst they can do is pump yur stomache and bring yu bacnk
Many, many times thought of it and no attempts.
I took a bunch of sleeping pills once.
I was about to be charged with threatening a woman on the internet. I come from a good family, and didn’t want that on my record.
Long story short…I was let off with just a warning by the Police. I was psychotic at the time and felt I was being persecuted by these people, so I threatened them.
So many times I’ve tried. Popped a bunch of pills and laid down. Always got the ambulance called on me. Been to the ICU a couple times. Been in the mental hospital a bunch. Sometimes mad at them for finding me, sometimes glad. I’m grateful now though because I get to spend time with my grandbabies. Finally got some meds to where I don’t feel like dying anymore.
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How many of those? What dose? Where did you get it from considering you require doctor’s prescription for it
I just bought a whack of sleeping pills at Walmart. I took a bunch of them and lied down.
Fortunately I woke up and threw up the pills. My little daughter actually saved me that day, but that’s another story.
Without prescription?
Good to see you alive Patrick… I feel good about talking to you
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Hmm. . .
Isn’t It Interesting To Note, That Many Of Us Have Attempted To Commit The Unspeakable.
(Well Here We Are Talking About It, Strange). J/k!.
N e Hoo.
We Tried. And Sometimes, Thought About It, And Got Closer, And Closer, And Closer To Do It.
Some Of Us Gave It A Basic Quick Jab. And…, And…, And…,
Survived.
Now Here We All Are.
Sharing Some Personal Stories On What Most Hate To Admit.
Although Some Like To Feed Some Sort Of Ego, And Shout About It From The Rooftops.
Yea, Yea, Yea, My Attempt Has A Beautiful Ending. At Least To Me Personally.
Mine Own Ego Tripping (???).
Point Is,
We . Are . All . Still . Here .
Hmm. . . Looks Up At The Morning Sky Feeling Weary, With A Cigarette
~P.s. Hope, Trust, True Love, Honesty, Joy, And Endlessly Eternal Peace!.~ 
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I’ve considered it many times, sometimes even laid plans.
Never got as far as attempting it, however.
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I spend a month practising partial hanging, almost succeded at one point. Towards the end i was contemplating a full suspension but my mom got to know about it hospitalized me. I also thought of downing 400 depakote 500mg tablets, but it would only put me to coma. Sadly there is only 2 options to kill youraelf peacefully with medication. Like depakote, benzoes, antipsychotics and most antidepressants wont kill you sadly even in gram doses