I have made a couple of attempts in the past. Had suicidal ideation but without actual intent. Especially if I go a couple of days without my antidepressant. I really descend into poor mood and agony.
I am glad that all of you are alive
Yes. When I was a teenager I swallowed a bottle of antibiotics. I wasnāt very brilliant back then. I got sick to my stomach and threw them up.
Spring of 2019 I was planning on killing myself, but I went and talked to my pdoc about it. He put me on an antidepressant, and I got better.
When we talk about death or suicide, I would like to talk abour Buddhism and other religions.
Once I try to commit hanging myself, however, the rope was break.
Why would you talk about buddhism?.. How does that help you avoid suicide?
Same with me⦠Recently I bought a bottle of pesticide and my parents asked my doctor to put me on it
I think that Buddhism was brought to China by ancient Chinese people to help people fulfill the daily life.
A long time ago.Last was in 1984.
Also, no matter you believe it or not, you may read some buddhism books and also you may get wisdom from religions.
We can read some books on religions no matter we believe it or not.
Today I donāt feel like I have a future, but I live each day as it comes. I donāt want to die anymore.
I have had a death wish most of my life sadly, depression hits so yes, a few times. The worst being when I took 50 sleeping pills, fell head first into the kitchen table and lied there for 36 hours on my arm. Damaged all the nerves in my left arm and was very painful for a long time and could hardly use my arm.
Also, I get some wisdom by reading Bible stories when I was prediagnosed.
May be some day I will visit China to practice zen buddhism⦠I already have visited Shanghai and met a monk there
I hope you can get some wisdom by researching Buddhism.
Also, I have read some books on buddhism, and the books told me that the buddhism has a type of cheating.
My favorite saying is donāt worry about tomorrow because todayās troubles are sufficient.
i was very suicidal for long time but never actually tried to commit suicide. But i had a lot of ideation of it⦠I really wanted to not be alive⦠luckily i waited cause now i feel betterā¦
One of my biggest regrets was an overdose of sleeping pills. The voices made me do it. But fortunately they said to me, girl, we give you another chance with life, so I stopped taking them. I must have taken half the packet. Not sure entirely as my family threw the pack away when I was in hospital, DOUGH
But itās okayā¦
I didnāt knew voices could make you do such a thing