I’ve been having these thoughts since I was a kid of wanting to plan out someone’s death. A stranger, family member, friend, or even an animal. But they are just thoughts i’ve Never taken action on them.
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I’ve never really had a desire to hurt anyone. I was a poor fighter and a great mediator so I think my only fist fight I lost anyways. I’m not sure how rare such thoughts are. I know if you torture animals your more likely to be a serial killer.
I have a friend though. He’s described as normal and he had a similar desire. Was in army reserves and all. Fired heavy machine guns and got one of those battle fats. It’s quite common to get an erection firing large hardware…not sure where that leaves us but not acting and knowing it’s not good is a good thing. Have you been a violent person?
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Growing up I was very violent, I was always in fights. I’ve haven’t really tortured animals except for one time I got this rage to joke my dog. But it was only once. I’m also a trained boxer, and Muay Thai, and mma fighter since I was 6. So I know that if I really wanted to kill someone I could.
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I get the urge to kill sometimes. Not as often now that my meds work. I get homicidal voices as well. Sometimes it bothers me how little it bothers me. If that makes sense.
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Sz can be hard. Lots of thoughts that aren’t good for you or others. I’d say if you don’t act that is probably a good thing. I’ve met others before with command hallucinations and such which is problematic. I think you know what is good and what isn’t. That is a good way to be.
All’s I’d suggest is that if it bothers you too much seek some therapy. Bouncing ideas of someone else can be beneficial.
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Yeah that makes sense, sometimes it bothers me like when I have the thoughts towards my baby nephew but other times it doesn’t bother me at all.
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I haven’t mentioned it to my pdoc or therapist because I’m scared they might lock me in a psych ward
Dispel that anger in the ring, if you still compete?
Yeah it could bite you on the tail! I think you can keep a lid on it. If it becomes a problem then seek help. I’d agree bringing it up could be problematic if your not so good.
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I can’t fight no more due to to many injuries especially back and head injuries I do miss it though
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I’m just worried about my temper… like could it lead me to harming someone
When I was like 16 or so, I thought I was an aspiring serial killer who would kill at the command of God, who was supposedly talking to me in my head. I’m not sure what would’ve happened if he had asked me to kill, but I’m just glad he didn’t.
Last November, I started getting command hallucinations telling me to kill, mostly directed towards my grandpa. I found a hammer and my voices were just goading me into it. It was scary. I was hospitalized for that one.
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Violence is never an answer. If you can punch you could damage someone severely. If you struggle seek help. Jail isn’t good for anyone with a mental illness.
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Wow that is scary, my voices have only been instant gators and have pushed me to do it but i’ve Never gone through with it
Yes I know especially because I have been I. Jail many times before and it was one of the worst experiences ever.
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In self defence? Yes. But that was my paranoia psychosis episode where i thought aliens were coming for me. I thought they were skulking around the house at night. So i started sleeping with a bat and knife lol.
I dont anymore though, and ive never had a “i want to kill someone” thought at any time.
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And then y’all wonder why people are scared of schizophrenics? You choked your dog? Please don’t get any more animals. Yes, you should definitely tell your doctor.
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I choked my dog when I was 8 years old. And people are scared of schizophrenics because they don’t give us a chance. They don’t understand what we go through on a daily. To them we are all psychos.
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Peace. It’s a sensitive topic but it’s worthwhile discussing triggers sometimes. No need to fight or such. I’d agree it’s not my cup of tea but keep it civil and supportive. Locking threads don’t help a conversation. All’s I’m saying is a so called normal person confided in me some pretty dark stuff so these thoughts might not be common but out there…
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I don’t mean to put a topic that can trigger someone, I’ve just never seen anyone post about it and it’s really bothering me. I thought this was a place I can be honest and opened.
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