i do this sometimes bc i think people might wonder why i am not working or why i have a disabled bus/train pass, so i will intentionally act like i am more sad than i actually am,
its weird bc i shouldnt have to put on an act, i mean i take meds and i am diagnose p/sz so idk why i bother what people think,
i am doing ok just now so i shouldnt pretend not to be just to try and show people that i actually am still sick
do you now what i mean?
Donāt know that feel
I think most of us put on an act every now and them. I do.
we shouldnt have to though,
maybe we are ashamed of ourselves 
all the worlds a stage and each must play its part, so Iāve heard, ive seen the results of David Axelrods acting lessons on Ed Millaband, happy warrior, negative to positive, use the audience at home, itās like watching ghost in the shell, hmm another ghost hacked human with a puppet master
I do the opposite, I always act like Iām fine
My āactā consists of acting like everything is okay all the time. The past couple days have had their rocky moments. When it gets to be too much, I hide in my room with music on. Been doing that a lot lately.
Lots is a song and tap dance. Due to REALLY bad stigma, you are better off coming up with another āreasonā you are on SSDI and lie about it. If you accidentally dig yourself out after a snow storm with your ābad backā or lift a couple of things with nosy neighbor watching, they can turn you into social security if they want and it wonāt hurt you. Also explains why you wonāt work in retail or janitorial jobs. When you do work, you NEVER disclose a diagnosis. You can ask for accommodations, any changes to work tasks or environment so you can do the job, such as you are on SSDI so you can only work ___ hours per week or you need the same schedule all the time due to insomnia problems.
I just act normal and ignore the kook stuff some strangers pull like stalking me to verbally harass me about something private.
i dont really act normal bc my meds kind of make me act normal so they do all of the work lol
iād say its more like when you reach my level of functioning on meds people think you are ok and wonder why you are not working and why you have a disabled bus/train pass
i can feel people judging me all the time even in the gym i am worried someone will say why are you not working or whatever, you get the odd pensioner who has worked all their lives and are now retired wondering why you are not working like they did at our age and i feel embarassed to say i have mental problems or whatever, i am waiting for someone to say āyou dont look like you have mental problemsā or whatever
I put on an actā¦ I act like Iām Ok. I try to act like itās all under controlā¦ nothing to seeā¦ do not look at the little man behind the curtain.
I remember when this used to bother you beforeā¦ people have very odd work secludesā¦
night jobs and split shiftsā¦ just because your out and about in the day doesnāt mean people immediately assume your jobless.
That part is none of their businessā¦ train and bus engineers are too busy to wonder about peopleās passā¦ all they know isā¦ your there legally.
Hope you feel better soon and not worry about what other think.
Just keep going to the gym and doing your activities. Think about them, maybe - what their lives are like - are two possibilities.
I try to act as normal as possible.
Itās what I say sometimes that shows me in clearly ill.
People that are around me more definitely notice my mania or depress/negative aspect. Cuz i will go from busting in the room like Kramer from Seinfeld with some crazy idea, to sleeping and isolation . The rest I keep well hidden
I have turned into a really good actor. I try to act mature and normal because if I didnāt I think other folks would see what I am really feeling. There is nothing wrong with acting, unless you are trying to deceive others for some financial gains.
I wonder if this trait is unique to us humans, because look at all the money we spend watching others getting paid to be actors. We are such good actors that we can even evoke real emotions from our viewers. We can be really good "white" liars if you ask me to put it bluntly. lol.i put on an act to make people think Iām not as sick as I really amā¦
I used to a little now I take pride in how functional I can be and try hard to not seem SZā¦even with healthcare professionals, I take pride in my functionality. Plus the meds are working so donāt have those crazy voices going through my head telling me to do this and that. The voices would tell me to do things that made me seem SZā¦beyond just crazy behavior. Idk if that makes sense. Idk.
Itās hard to keep up when you just want to relax. Iām good for maybe two hours tops then I need some serious breathing time.
I have managed to work 10 hour shifts at a couple jobs in this condition. That was no fun. Eventually the stress would get to me and Iād quit. They werenāt the best suited jobs but I managed to get through them seeming pretty normal.
I put on an act with my own lover from the war and schizophrenia. It sucks, and Iāll never break the same.
To make more senseā¦It was like the voices would tell me to put on actā¦so I guess I wasnāt really putting on an act, because itās what the voices were saying. But the voices wanted me in the mental hospital??? Or I couldnāt control myself??? The voices were smart I guess, they knew what was best for me.
I just remember laying in the E.R. talking to my mom and I would try to say something to my mom and it was interrupted by another thought and I couldnāt get a clear sentence outā¦it was apparent I was completely experiencing psychosis. And they would tell me to do certain things that I knew were wrong butā¦ā ā ā ā I have a headache thinking about this. But WHY COULDNāT I JUST PUT A CLEAR SENTENCE OUT?