I haven’t been diagnosed with schizophrenia yet but I suspect I may be. I have an aversion to doctors and especially psychologists because I don’t trust them which makes things difficult lol.
I have many many beliefs that are not agreed upon by the general public from spirituality, religion, history, government, and the list goes on. Many of these I feel I am able to back up with logic and history but I don’t know if it is simply delusional or if it may be something more. I’m new to this forum so I’m not even sure where to start any help or suggestions or especially conversation on any subject would be greatly appreciated.
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I assume you don’t take meds? 
If you hear voices in your head you’re almost certainly schizophrenic. Not sure if that’s a symptom for you or not.
It is hard to say-- A Psychiatrist would be your best counsel.
You could have delusions. This would be most likely because of Schizophrenia.
I don’t take meds at least not anything prescribed and don’t do anything illegal anymore for several years now but I do believe I self medicate with alcohol and cigarettes. I can’t say that I hear voices at least nothing intelligible but I do hear things that aren’t there frequently almost as an anticipation. I also believe often that things I hear or see (songs, commercials, e.t.c) are targeted at me through some greater power. I haven’t seen a psychiatrist in years and when I did they were mostly clueless as to what was wrong with me so were the social workers and professionals that I routinely saw as my mother tried to get an answer to what was wrong with me.
Sounds like schizophrenia. I have that tv radio targeting me delusional mind state when Im unmedicated. It might slip out of control over time or due to stressful situations. Best to get it under control, I have to be medicated. My unmedicated self avoids meds because of various delusional paranoias but the fact is either God or Mother Nature doesn’t make us all perfect hence survival of the fittest. Humans use tools, medication is a tool to function in society, being sz has its benefits but in a more mad max type of way, ie when I’m unmedicated I win fights and it makes me more imposing. But. That’s not helpful unless you’re in the movie Fight Club. It gets in the way, imo it’s a genetic artifact that was once helpful for survival but is no longer needed and in fact gets in the way, like a tail. But that doesn’t make one inferior but rather just in the process of adapting. There are worse things out there, but don’t get me wrong it’s a struggle. Blessings and knowledge etcetera to ya.
It sounds like you are destabilising but don’t currently have a diagnosis of schizophrenia
Self diagnosis is rare. Most of us hit the system pretty hard via psychosis. Truly it’s all about function. If you life is being compromised by your symptoms then it’s time to see a psychiatrist. I’d recommend that route. Good luck.
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Toughluck33 I have the same feeling about it being adaptation. I’m unusually advanced at hand to hand combat as well as with weapons and my body and mind function much differently within situations where those things may be needed and I feel totally incomplete and useless in a world where they are not. I am very concerned about medication though because those I’ve been placed on in the past were very debilitating and caused drastic reduction in my ability to think and reason but I’m not sure if that’s just because it removed the extraneous beliefs and delusions that allowed me to reach my determinations initially.
AdmiralBarkley I don’t believe I am destabilizing in fact most of the time quite the opposite. It feels as though I am starting to really understand what is happening to me and even able to view a lot of it from a seemingly 3rd person perspective in order to make adjustments to fit in to daily life.
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I don’t think you do.
It hit my life very hard for a while until I was able to stabilize myself and make sense of everything that was going on and put it all together into one single constant and comprehensive explanation. The ultimate question I suppose is how do I know if what I believe and “know” is delusional or correct and simply not understood or accepted by most
Thank you for your positive feedback but I have to ask why? What makes you think that?
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One of the concerns with sz is that psychosis can tend to hit right when you feel your life is taking off. There are delusions of grandeur involved a lot of the time, I’m not saying this is happening in your case but it’s something to watch out for. Feelings like you’re “destined for success” or like you’re the “chosen one” can quickly escalate into something that can really mess one’s life up. Do you have telepathic delusions? I say delusions specifically. I know we can call them beliefs but do you believe people are able to communicate telepathically with you but are denying it in order to achieve some end goal? For me this is the clincher. I did thought experiments and determined that telepathy was not happening but my brain will not let it go. I can consciously block myself from obsessing about it when medicated but otherwise it’s a mess. If you have that then you have sz in my opinion. But if you can function without meds, well. You may be functioning but you might be even higher functioning on meds, or reverse, it’s a tricky misunderstood condition. Time will tell, if you’re in your early twenties as most are when it hits you may have a psychotic episode. Those are terrible, but fun, but terrible. Idk. Be careful is all I’m saying.
I have been dealing with it for most of my life currently im actually in my late 30’s and just beginning to finally put the pieces together I’ve been “different” and “weird” my entire life for a lot of the things I’ve seen listed as symptoms. I don’t know that I have issues with telepathic communication to the point that it requires denial I feel like it is often that I am able to pick up thoughts or transmit them to others subconsciously evident in constantly being told “that’s exactly what I was thinking” or going to say however im not sure if it is simply based on my ability to read nonverbal ques and assess them I’m really nervous about seeing a doctor about it and getting medicated only to be mentally chemically castrated because my opinions don’t fit the mold
You got this. Castration is one of my major fears too but I’m actually getting ready to be a father. It can happen, it’s scary but the sz as a condition to me feels like it’s conscious. I liken it to like fairies or sprites rather than angels and demons because it seems the condition itself is clever and tricks me. It held me back to be honest and now that I’m more fully sane the family thing is happening. They won’t castrate you these days, the meds can make sex a little harder at first in the bedroom but it’s easier to get into relationships when you can relate a little more to neurotypicals. I’ve tried several meds, they all have their downsides, but now I’m on aristada which is the injection for abilify. It really has done wonders for me. As for the telepathy you’re right, I do believe there is an underlying subconscious language we use but knowing it is kinda painful and I prefer not to necessarily live in ignorance of it but rather to not be held down by it. Like I was saying, for me it was the condition of schizophrenia that was ‘castrating’ me. Now that I’m on meds I’m getting ready for family life and I need patience, something I was not whilst unmedicated.
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I find it highly unlikely that a schizophrenic diagnoses themselves. I was told I had it for 6 years before I figured it out for myself.
Self aware at first we are not.
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I have only begun to consider self diagnosis as a possibility at the age of nearly 38 after dealing with it unchecked since early childhood and from my research many of the symptoms align with what I’ve always dealt with
Childhood schizophrenia is really rare but it does happen. Schizophrenia is a chronic illness and you think you have had it 30 plus years never having been hospitalized, medicated or diagnosed?
That’s not likely either.
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I’ve been diagnosed with a lot of things including “everything we have a test for” and I have even been hospitalized before but I have a 174 IQ and a background in acting that i believe has made it difficult for people to diagnose. So I’m stuck trying to figure it out myself
What did they say at the hospital? Why no meds?
You need to see a psychiatrist. None of us can diagnose you. I got schizophrenia at 38 which is also rare. I have also been diagnosed with everything under the sun but that’s all part of your medical history that a psychiatrist will consider.
Good luck to you.
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