There’s something I think I have to do, but I don’t want to do it. This thing would save the world. I’m told I’m experiencing a delusion so I’m posting here. I don’t think it’s a delusion is the thing. Each day I hold off on doing this thing, the probability that I will be killed before I can do it increases. I am told that this is also a delusion. I’m supposed to be focusing on the moment, but I feel like I need to do this thing at this moment. What should I do?
Nope. Dont do. If many people have had the same delusion, then it is probably a delusion.
And if sounds dangerous, then it probably is.
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Can you elaborate on what the particular thing is you have to do, that will save the world?
Discovering a world-saving technology like zero-point energy sounds good on paper, but in reality it could just end up making more powerful weapons.
Founding a popular political movement sounds good on paper too, but if it gets too popular it usually leads to tyranny, like with one-party systems throughout history.
Maybe creating a perfect crypto-currency that outlasts fiat and doesn’t hyperinflate, or deflate? That would probably get centralized and become the beast system.
Not all world-saving ideas are potentially bad though.
A quick cure for cancer and heart disease would be cool though. Maybe a fountain of youth? Some kind of Star-Trek-esque replicator tech?
I’m out of ideas after that.
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It is my guess that what it would be best to do, if you start thinking your really going to do what ever dangerous thing your planning…then it might be time to consider it a mental health crisis and head to hospital.
I already know it is not what you wanted to hear.(sorry, you did ask though)
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I’m supposed to kill myself. It came to me in an epiphany this week. It sounds like a delusion I guess, but it’s true.
At first my mom wanted me to go to the hospital, but I saw my therapist and started taking an increased amount of medicine. I’m supposed to live in the moment but wait to kill myself but I’m not sure I should wait. I don’t know why I posted here. I’m sorry.
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Oh come on, you’re not exactly Hitler. Give yourself a chance.
You’re probably a saint with all the thought-regulation and self-censorship you have to do, thanks to SZ.
nope. nope nope nope x 1000000000000
that is absolutely delusion
please dont do that.
They should not have let you shuffled back out office door this way.
Not my life nor anyones will be spared by your death.
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are you calling a crisis line?
It’s not about being good or bad. I have the seed. I’m supposed to die. I can’t. My mom’s here. She knows. She wants me to push through. Live in the moment. I am living in the moment.
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You should never be sorry for posting in this forum. You’re deeply cared about here. We want to know what’s going on in your life. And also…I think you should go to the hospital.
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My mom would have to take me. She won’t.
@Sardonic Please don’t hurt yourself.
You are still delusional.
If you can’t control yourself please go to the ER.
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I can’t because my mom won’t take me. I thought maybe I should go earlier, but I was reminded of how much I hated it and I’m supposed to be pushing through. I don’t know how.
I had a similar delusion, thinking that I was some biblically notorious figure, and that I was going to go down a bad, apocalyptic path in life, but I realized that I am the master of my destiny, and I determine my path through the choices I make, so I chose a good path of e-commerce, software development, and eventually, if my mind and living situation permits, psychiatry.
You may be depressed, consider having that treated. Try b-vitamins for starters, low levels of them have been tied to clinical depression.
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I feel that I have only one option. I don’t think there’s another way. I am depressed. I don’t want to kill myself. I’ve tried before and it was so scary. But if it will save the world then don’t I have an obligation to do so?
But you see, it won’t save the world. All it will do is devastate your loved ones and friends.
Just saying “I have the seed” doesn’t mean a thing. Do you have some kind of devastating, broad-spectrum plan to bring forth the apocalypse? If not, I would dismiss the delusion, relegating it to simple bad emotions, mere chemical reactions in your brain.
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Whatever happens, happens and you don’t need to worry about saving the world.
We will take our chances on the world ending @Sardonic
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I really appreciate that @StripedShirtBoy but I don’t think most people would feel the same. Thank you @anon22322466. I have no plan to bring forth the apocalypse no, but those who do will cease to exist should I end my life. That was my epiphany. It’s difficult to dismiss as delusion, because while everyone keels saying that it’s not real, if it is real I must complete my mission. I’ve struggled for a while with wanting to die and I think the reason is that the seed was pushing me towards suicide all this time because that was always my mission. I think I have to do this.
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I shouldn’t have put it like that. I can’t do anything tonight because my mom’s here. I can’t sneak out or take anything. I just meant that I don’t think I have a choice.