I’m a slow metabolizer of caffeine. Been abusing it for 15+ years since I was a teenager. Probably could have paid cash for a corvette by now if I saved the money instead.
I’ve been more psychotic on it and spent all my money on it. Only benefit is self-medication and self-punishment, I guess. Off of it, I might be stable and workable and not need as many meds and might have no symptoms or just no positive symptoms.
My choice of drug is monster energy drinks. I recently cut them in half from 10 a day to 5 a day. It’s literally an OCD/autim cycle and obsession of mine and it’s been every damn day of usage for 15+ years.
I’ve been consuming an estimated 2-3 grams of caffeine a day every day for the last few years. I’m getting sick and ill and not doing well and I’m tired of it. I’m replacing it with a healthier alternative that helps me and gives me better, cleaner, and more sustainable energy. It’s way cheaper too. It’s sort of natural and tastes like green tea.
My next step is reducing or quitting nicotine/smoking cigs. One thing at a time.
I also want to exercise a bit more. I’m tired of having a damaged, broken, and disorganized/scattered brain 24/7. I got delusions because of it, but obviously, I feel some of it was real too.