Same here I cant really drink coffee really otherwise I get really anxious. On occasion when I’m working early I do have the occasional cup but I shouldnt do really
Coffee addiction gets to me, too. Had to quit back in November in solidarity with Starlet because he had a heart condition that was triggered by caffeine. But his doc just gave him the all clear, so now he and Mr. Star have been drinking coffee again. But I’m not allowed because of my new treatment plan. It takes so much effort every morning to see the full pot of coffee and not have a mug.
I drank one cup of regular coffee a day for almost a couple of months on a daily basis. I had a mental breakdown, it was making me depressed.
So now I stepped down. Quit regular coffee, but found some caffee latte sachets where only 10% of the content is coffee. I plan to drink it only occasionally.
I have drank ten cups of coffee a day for over forty years. It’s gotten to where it doesn’t affect me any more. When I was starting out I did get pretty high on just a few cups, though. One night when I was seven years old I drank a cola a couple of hours before bed. I could not get to sleep for a few hours that night, and I’ve had insomnia ever since. Now I just take caffeine pills to feel normal. It’s cheaper and easier than drinking all the coffee.
I never ever drink coffee on an empty stomach. Today I vomited because I put too much food in my mouth at once. My medicine makes it hard to swallow most foods. I felt really bitter about the powers of the universe and how unlucky I am. I felt I had all I could take 20 + years ago. It is all so senseless. I couldn’t have done anything that bad! I can’t believe this is bad karma. I’d have to have been Hitler. I stick around for the good times not because I fear non existence or that it’s wrong to kill myself.