A Personal Journey into The Unknown (Schizoaffective Disorder)

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So.

Today:::~ I Gave Blood. (Been Taking Medications as Prescribed For Four Years).

I Take, Invega (Antipsychotic), Propranolol (Blood Pressure). Both Medications Respect Clarity.

My Personal Antipsychotic Helps Fight The Sphere of Fear. And Has a Good Ability to Combat The Negativity of ‘Ideas of Reference’. (With The Help of Music).

I Have Decided to Erase The Consumption of Soda’s, And Energy Drinks.

And Will Add, Lipton Green Tea. The Purchase Shall Be Cheaper Than The Caffeine, And Healthier. The Green Tea Carries The Full Daily Value of Antioxidants & Vitamin C. So, I Can Only Presume, a Slightly More Positive Way to, Daily Consume Liquids.

In The Meantime, (As Advised By My New Doctor), Learn About Yoga With YouTube Videos And Exercise Daily.

I Take Fairly Decent, Safe Walks (Almost), Daily And am Ready to Tackle Thus New, (As My Last Therapist Says), Thus New Adventure.

I Will Do My Best to Keep Everyone Updated. With The Happy Positive’s. And Ways to Combat The Sad Negative’s.

Sincerely,

DJ Nosferatu Bat Beam Dream (sleepoptimistic)
:owl: :alien: :owl:

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Sounds like a good plan, hope you see some improvements in your life.

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Thank You @zeno, Your Comment is Highly Appreciated And Well Hopeful Consent to Keeps it Cools!.

Sincerely,

DJ Nosferatu Bat Beam Dream (sleepoptimistic)
:owl: :alien: :owl:

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Plan Advice From My New Annual Checkup Doctor

  • Substitute Caffeine With Green Tea. (Full Daily Antioxidants & Vitamin C)

  • Daily Exercise at Least 15 Min.s Every Two Hours. (Basic Exercise Routines) Yoga Later!.

  • And Only Ten Cigarettes a Day. (As an Exclusive Brand New Start)

I Have The Personal Opportunity to Take Fairly Decent Walks to Purchase The Tea. So as I Begin to Budget Reasonably, I Shall Add Those Walks into The Daily Exercise. (In Order Not too Push too Far).

And Also!, if Anyone Would Like to Join Me on Thus New Personal Health Adventure, Feel Free to Add Your Pixelated Name And Begin With Me!.

I Shall Start Tomorrow!. (No Wake Time Yet, Still Working on Body Clock Function).

Sincerely,

DJ Nosferatu Bat Beam Dream (sleepoptimistic)
:owl: :alien: :owl:

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Nixing soda and energy drinks is a good start.

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Yes!, Yes it is!.

Sincerely,

DJ Nosferatu Bat Beam Dream (sleepoptimistic)
:owl: :alien: :owl:

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Slight Side Note:::~ I Also Was Given The Second Flu Shot I Have Ever Received My Entire Life.

The Flu Shot Was Surprisingly Painless, And Quick.

Now Resting, After Two Quick, Lightweight Meals, And Refreshing Myself With Plenty of Water.

Reanalyzing The Day of What Has Frightened Me Ever Since I Was a Young, Young Kid.

The Medical Field Can Be Slightly Traumatizing. Thanks to The Powers That Be, Today Was Not That Day.

Sincerely,

DJ Nosferatu Bat Beam Dream (sleepoptimistic)
:owl: :alien: :owl:

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Keep up the good works. Regular walks in nature to us a world a good.

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Thank You For Your Words of Positive Consideration @anon53623539!.

Sincerely,

DJ Nosferatu Bat Beam Dream (sleepoptimistic)
:owl: :alien: :owl:

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~Scanner Day 3~

So. I Took My Decent Walk, (Which I Learned Was a Bit Over a Mile). The First Travel Trip (Which Was Almost a Year Ago), Was Slightly Tiresome to My Inner Thighs. But!, After a Few (A) to (B)'s, Back to (A)'s. My Body Decoded The Body Code. In Order to Learn How to Engage in Such Slightly Distant Travels. Now!, Very Little Troubles, if Any at All.

I Grabbed Two Green Tea’s, Sat at a Nearby Bench And Lit a Cigarette. Enjoyed The Washing Noise of The Traffic. And Made it Back in Time For My Appointment at The Clinic. All About My Very First Ever Apartment!.

After The Appointment, I Was Able to Grab a Large Bottle of V8 Juice, And Waited For it to Rain,

I Have Decided, That Cutting Down on Smoking May Put too Much Pressure on Me at Thus Very Given Time. (It Takes a Bit of Faith in Society, Civilization, And Culture, to Take Long Walks Alongside a Highway).

So. Those Smokes Are Slightly Helpful. Anxiety And Such. Although, I Have to Admit, My Anxiety Level, (Thanks to Propranolol), is at a Good Holding Period. The Internal Request From My Shadow And Such.

N e Hoo. I’m Wandering. The Exercise Has Been Fulfilled. And My New Doctor is Probably Still Waiting For Me to Apply YOGA. But!, Not Yet Dear Medical Professional. Not Yet!.

Sincerely,

DJ Nosferatu Bat Beam Dream (sleepoptimistic)
:owl: :alien: :owl:

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Good work sleepopto :+1::+1:

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Thank You @LevelJ1, Thank You For The Kind Words of Encouragement!.

Sincerely,

DJ Nosferatu Bat Beam Dream (sleepoptimistic)
:owl: :alien: :owl:

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(Note Side) ~Scanner Day 3~ (Side Note)

Paranoia, is a Great Example of Body Language, Shadow, Aura, Circuits of Energy Spoken.

What is it’s Core?. The Spark?. The Drive?.

Birth?. A Feeling Brought Forth From a Morning/Night We Cannot Remember?.

Comfort. Clarity. Focus. Reason. Purpose?. Karma?. Deja-Vu?. Reincarnation?.

An Invisible Cycle of Life Edging Towards Time’s Future Stepping Stone?.

Into The Great Unknown?.

Sincerely,

DJ Nosferatu Bat Beam Dream (sleepoptimistic)
:owl: :alien: :owl:

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~Scanner Day 4~

It’s Been a Quick Painless Day So Far, Physically, And Psychologically.

I Drank Some Water, One Cup of Green Tea, And Feel Pretty Good Overall.

I’ll Check in Later, Sometime Thus Evening & Give You Gals And Guys a Quick Update!.

Sincerely,

DJ Nosferatu Bat Beam Dream (sleepoptimistic)
:owl: :alien: :owl:

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~Scanner Day 4 (Part 2)~

So. I Decided to Go Up to The Shop And Grab Some More Tea. It Was a Peaceful Walk. And After a Few Trips in The Past, I Decided The Best Time to Take The Trip, is Before 5:00. And Somewhere Between, 9:00am And 3:00pm. Jus a Bit Safer That Way I Assumed.

Although, Normally The Trips Are Hardly Felt. Today Has Been a Bit Tiring. Not So Much The Focus During The Walk. (As I Pretend to Be Told By a Drill Instructor to Keep Walking). But!, The Quick Sit Down After I Returned. And I Can Almost Feel My Body Tapping Me on My Shoulder, as if to Say, ‘Ok ok, Good Job, Now Rest You Weirdo’.

The Mind. The Body. The Consciousness. The Subconsciousness. The Shadow. The Aura. Our Dreams. Our Fantasies. Our Center of Self. All of Our Circuits of Energy. And Nature Within Our Human Being of Being!.

The Cautiously Optimistic Beings Being Free.

Sincerely,

DJ Nosferatu Bat Beam Dream (sleepoptimistic)
:owl: :alien: :owl:

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~Scanner Day 4 (Part 3)~

I Have Been Listening to Music For a Good While Now. Trying to Find More Reasons to Not Give up. Not in Any Real Sad Mood or Anything to Be Honest. More So, Trying to Prepare Myself For The Next Psychological Battle I Will Most Definitely Face. Some Would Say, “that’s life”. And I Would Respond With, ‘NO ONE IS LISTENING’. As Metallica Says, ‘Sad But True’.

Now if You Sit Down And Let Go For a Moment. It’s Easy to Be Overwhelmed By All of The WHAT IF’s!?!. And All of The Past That Holds Tightly All of Our Sad, Terrible, Agonizing Moments of Despair And Grotesque Memories of Those Who Endlessly Try to Tear us Apart. Like One of Radiohead’s Older Recording’s, ‘Feeling Pulled Apart By Horses’.

But!, if You Think of The More Peaceful, Happy, Fun, Exciting, Hopeful Times You Were Loved Within. You May Say to Yourself, ‘That Was Nice, But Few And Far Between’. And I Would Ask, ‘Does That Truth Make The Love You Felt Meaningless’?.

So. I Ask You to Stop For a Moment And…, Ask Yourself That Question.

Sincerely,

DJ Nosferatu Bat Beam Dream (sleepoptimistic)
:owl: :alien: :owl:

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~(Scanner Day 4)~

So. I Took Another Trip up to The Shop. To Once Again, Grab Some Tea. Almost as an Excuse to Exercise at Thus Point. (Doctors Are Sneaky). Ha And Ha.

She Even Asked Me if I Liked to Dance. And That is When She Mentioned YOGA. And as I Sat in The Chair to Give Blood. She Walked in The Room With a Laptop Showing Me Someone Doing Yoga on YouTube. (Sneaky Doctor). Ha And Ha, My Meds Make Sitting in a Buddhist Position Difficult After Five Minutes.

N e Hoo. I Have Some Sad News. About The Walk. Something Frightening, And Scary Happened. Some Car Filled With, (What Seemed Like Highschool Kid’s), Tried to Make Me Angry, Angry Like The HULK!!!.

Someone in The Car, (As They Made a Turn into a Street Ahead of Me), Someone Reached Out of The Window, And FLIPPED ME OFF!!!.

Can You Believe Someone Would Do That to a Nice Fellow Like Myself?. LIONS!, AND TIGERS!. AND BEARS!, OH MY!!!.

Well Needless to Say, I Continued My Walk And Realized Something. Ever Since My Walks, Beginning Almost a Year Ago. The Stats With Every Car That Has Passed By Me. 1 Out of 10,000 isn’t Too Bad. Pretty Good Odds.

But!, What if My Privacy on Thus Site Has Been Breached. Out of Pointless Jealousy And Bitterness to Those Exploring New Found Freedom?.

Be it Karma, (Highly Doubt it). Be it Probability, (Almost Insane to Try And Configure).

How About…, a Parasitic Nature of Worthlessness. In Which Offers Nothing, to Society, Civilization, And Culture.

So Why Worry, Think, or Put Any Heart into it. For I Feel as if i Already Said Too Much About The Hopelessness Being Forced Upon All Those Who Have to Witness That Meaningless Self Indulgent Way to Pass The Time.

Their Shadows Will Catch up to Them Soon. If They Don’t Find Alternate Routes to Make Their Voices Heard. And it Won’t Be Coming From Me.

I Have Better Things to Do.

Sincerely,

DJ Nosferatu Bat Beam Dream (sleepoptimistic)
:owl: :alien: :owl:

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Why would these kids do that? :confused:

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That’s a Great Question.

Well, Kinda Sadly, And Kinda Realistic. I Can’t Say i’m Innocent From That Type of Behavior Growing up.

Me And My Friends Would Skip School. Walk Through The Streets, And Pretty Much Became Everyone’s interest as to Why The Police Wouldn’t Alert The Schools.

Call it a Free Pass, I Suppose.

But as I Got Older, Well, The Law Became an Iron Fist, And We All Were Forced to Get Jobs.

Gotta Admit, As The Guy Flipped Me Off, He Was Laughing With His Friends.

Been There Before. A Little Wild, And Sadly, if They Are Not Careful. They Might Run into Somebody Not as Patient And Understanding as Myself.

So. it’s a Double Edged Metaphorical Sword. On One Side, Someone Like Me, Who Laughs And Says, ‘Get Back to School’!.

And The Otherside, Where The Law Grips Them So Tightly, it May Take Years For Them to Recover.

It Was Annoying at Worst. And I Said My Peace. But!, I Prefer Being Left Alone.

Sincerely,

DJ Nosferatu Bat Beam Dream (sleepoptimistic)
:owl: :alien: :owl:

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