I am finally getting better

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So I found the right meds for the schizoaffective- it is rexulti 4mg and wellbutrin 100mg.

I started going to a new gym, it is fantastic, I also know one of the trainers from grade school. The gym is basically all of the gyms I have paid shitbuckets for in one, and way cheaper to go to, but brand new- it is a sick deal.

I have been shopping for my diet, the old active, more like insanely intense training diet- I am working my way back up to insane level exercise- it helps with the PTSD and sleep- so does prazosin, which I take 5mg every bedtime.

I signed a lease for a new apartment next to school- way better deal, only available to students- rent includes everything imaginable, you just bring bedsheets and pillows and food and books and a laptop- comes with a TV, cable, internet, utilities, washer, dryer, kitchen with mircrowave and granite, nice studio. Costs less than here, is a happier environment.

I was contacted about getting my old thesis published, that was a relief. I thought it would never make it.

Starting going to a new therapist, she really sees the root of my issues right off the bat.

Got a new coat on sale, Calvin Klein, was supposed to be hundreds but was 95 bucks

Got a new vape system which is way cheaper and more rugged and less bull

most importantly, am on point to start my master’s in counseling this fall! I am still accepted into the program, they were cool about me having to take a year off. I am sort of a machine in academia, so I will probably continue after the MS. I was the top student last year- it was legit.

Life is legit right now. Just wanted to share. I feel like myself again. My social life is sort of eh but I think I need some time alone to get well, I need to focus on myself for a while.

Just a week ago I was fixing to end my life, and then the crisis line didnt ■■■■■■■ answer, had to call my mom who got me to decide to live. Spent the rest of the week stuck in a chair on 2mg haldol.

We are autonomous! If you dont like it, do not do it. Like what you do, do what you like, quit and get it back like riding the bike.

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Glad to hear how things have turned around for you. You sound like you’re working really hard on having a better life. Best wishes with your future!

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Wow, it sounds like your life is really back on track. I hope I can do the same. I’m looking for work, but I may want to go back to school. Right now my life just isn’t going that well. Maybe I need a change of meds just like you.

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I like everything that you are doing for yourself. Keep at it. You’re one of the winners.

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I thought you wanted to go the pdoc route with school over the social worker/psychology route? What changed?

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thats a good question- what changed? I did my research on counseling psi, clinical psi, medicine, and psychiatry, even psychiatric nursing, and I chose counseling psi.

I have acceptance to a clinical rehab program, which earns an LPC and also a CRC- I do not want to stop there- it streamlines into a counseling psychology doctoral program designed to be shortened and also exclusively for people with masters degrees. This would have me back in the APA again, where I could be on the divisions task force on severe mental illness and serious emotional disturbances- sort of to represent and also to bring insight as well as being able to actually do the work as well as most psychologists.

I have a background which is extremely dark, basically pitch black from the abyss of human life, and being quite disturbed or at least having taste in things from my clothes to research interests being disturbing to some is actually quite a valuable perspective when you actually exceed in academia and practice.

Psychiatry is just pills for symptoms
clinical psi is too detatched
counseling psi is all about therapy- I am all about insight and empowerment to people who are disadvantaged, and only God knows how great a disadvantage our illness is.

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There is a great need for good psychiatrists out there. Whereas counselors are legion.

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Yeah I am done with all that stuff. Medical costs too much that I simply do not have, psi is old hat, and law is seeming more attractive.

Mental health law is what I am gearing up for. I am too disturbing to be a counselor.