–sleep too much? I do. I’ve been on meds my whole life and it’s not to be desired.
It occurred to me today
What a sad life it has been.
Drugs every day and not the partying
Kind
No friends for decades on end
Not even family
Excuse me while I shed a tear
I feel it’s my right
The author of life is a sorry writer.
@Jinx Why don’t you volunteer your time serving a purpose to assist the community? Staying in bed all day makes your situation detrimental. Structure your days in the week with some sort of activity.
Well, you are on this Internet forum talking to us. Maybe try being a moderator? I don’t know. I know the feeling laying in bed and staring at the ceiling all day is depressing but you need to take initiative at some point.
You’re already practicing playing music quite a bit. You’re more capable than you’re giving yourself credit for. Start out small and see where it goes.
You need an interest to stay out of bed. Yeah, the negatives are crap, and you cant be arsed - but you got to do a bit of self help, and force yourself.
One little change could make such a difference. Finding some kind of support group irl or taking an adult Ed class or going to church or some other activity could change your life. But like others said, no one’s going to do it for you, you have to do it yourself. Maybe a case manager or therapist would steer you in the right direction though. Just one activity where you would be interacting with other people. You don’t seem like a bad guy, why don’t you give yourself a break and take the plunge and do something social. Even just becoming a regular at a coffee shop where the waitresses and other regulars will get to know you would be a positive step.
Sometimes it is good to moan the blues. I do it myself from time to time. Maybe you could find something that interests you. I think you can get a pretty good metal detector for around $100, or you can get a pretty good telescope for the same price. Maybe you could find some kind of hobby. Computer games might be good. They’re highly addictive, but I think they would take your mind off your pain. I’ve never had a serious computer game myself, and I will probably maintain that situation because I have a highly addictive personality.