I’ve contemplated death many times. I’m just grateful to wake up every morning. I open my eyes and say “I’m still here. I can do another day of this.” You just have to keep pushing, death is the coward’s way out. Before you think about stuff like that, think about how hard it would be on your parents, your siblings, your friends, your loved ones.
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@anon68148378 , You sound like you are financially secure. It is possible I will inherit money and be like that too. I don’t know for sure or for how long the money will last. You say “deny” our illness and we will feel better. I happen to agree now. Pretend we are happy it will be. Try not to think, say, or write anything darkly negative. That will be my policy. I will make an effort to guard and not concede major territory in the battle. I will begin by not saying death is better than going on with this life. I will not say it even if I think it.
God knows my thoughts and He hears my words, and this is a serious matter between us.
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Sometimes I feel like that, but then I realize it isn’t THAT bad (even though it is really really bad) & I can have some kind of enjoyable life with it.
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I am heartily agree to "God knows my thoughts and he hear my words."
But now I am going further. I made my hallucinations to its base. I want to understand the phenomenon of God. In the start of schizophrenia my body didn’t act unnecessarily as a mad. But certainly a reason or cause of it. Now I think as I am behaving normal they (the cause of my paranoid schizophrenia) certainly goes on trouble.
Your age is 61. So I think you will be to start some religious activities in your life and to make the expenditure minimum.
I wouldn’t give schizophrenia the satisfaction.
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Sometimes I do feel miserable and like I’d be better off dead. Just need to address the problem. Fix up nausea with a good shower and anxiety meds, exercise away the pain. Sometimes, for me, keeping life meaningful is a battle. Sometimes you have to distract yourself till the feeling passes.
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