Another for the count until I start taking meds again. I woke up, immediately knowing I was somewhat psychotic. On another mission to do nobody knows what. I live in a world full of idiots, and am alone. “IDIOTS” I’m constantly thinking. Everywhere. Psycho-analysing. Degrading. Tearing down everything so they can feel ok. It’s ok tho, because I won’t be moved. All, like a syrup pouring down my brain.
To make things better, my Paypal was “hacked”. Multiple transactions from another company claiming to be Facebook… I don’t even use Facebook. With piling charges from the bank, I ended up just shy of -$900. Fun.
They were able to reverse most of it.
It’s the mark of brilliance to feel alone even when your around people. It’s as if people are allowed to grow more dumb and complacent with every step forward that humanity makes. They’ll amount to nothing unless they are lucky or artistically talented. It’s a good thing that people can’t actually hear my thoughts because I think along the same lines. Best of luck brother. Surround yourself with those that are on the path.
Thankyou… It’s nice to talk with people in the same boat.
I would hate to think that so many people are really like this to any degree really… Whether it’s a sub-conscious or conscious action they’re taking… The thing is, I felt the same way on meds. I just didn’t care. Now, I care, and I realize, seemingly… I really just don’t know. I would like to think I’m simply mis-interpreting. In the end, I imagine, I will find that it’s somewhere in between. Everyone has a dark side. Every one has an animalistic nature. Everyone does selfish things. There are all kinds of energies and they all meet together into a mesh that can’t possibly be picked apart. I can stand most of it, until people aren’t honest about what they are or what their intentions are. If I want to slam someone, I will atleast give the honestly to say “I don’t like you”. Every human should have that right.
“They all seem to have lives and it comes so naturally to them.” I’m jealous to that degree as well. Even as monsters, they can commune with one another. I just don’t see why any being would do that.
The people in my life are all pretty smart in their own right. They don’t seek the edge of knowledge, but they are comfortable with what they know. All in all its not necessary to really know. I think that is where the major difference is between them and I. They seek to live I seek to know. Most of them are musicians. It’s all about the experience. To me it’s all about progress. They world changes but not quick enough for me. I spend a lot of time wondering about why I feel so different from people. Trying to reverse engineer their psychology and employ it for myself. At the end of the day though I’m just glad they are all so friendly and happy. I have a stark lack of intellectualism in my life. It’s all talk about music.
sorry that happened , that really sucks…
any consolation i woke up psychotic too…yeah…i love killing people in my head !?!
but the bloodied cut off heads make a nice accessory on my belt though, it is a william wallace/sith thing !
take care
I just don’t see why any being would do that.