I have a friend that said she’s never been psychotic but her diagnosis is I believe schizo affective. I went way off the rails during my two psychotic breaks. So my question is and this may be a dumb question but did you experience a psychotic break? My whole world changed when I was deep in psychosis. How bad was your psychotic break? Mine were extreme. The first one before I knew what was wrong became extreme until I got treatment. The second one was also extreme and drug induced. It took a couple years even on meds to improve.
Sure, for the first two years of my disease, probably longer. It’s kind of hard to pinpoint exactly when it started and when it ended. Mine was pretty extreme too.
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I’ve had 3 or 4 episodes.
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I remember my first hospitalization where I finally got treatment. Within a month I was coming out of psychosis. The second one was very gradual improvement. I never went to the hospital but worked with my doctor. I’m glad I improved like I did cause my mind was ■■■■■■. I’m glad to know someone else’s was extreme.
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How long did they last if you remember?
First one was 2 years. Mostly stopping meds caused them.
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I went in my first hospital when I was 19. I wasn’t in that bad of shape when I went in but I came out two weeks later psychotic. Then I spent a year unmedicated in a group home for schizophrenics followed by 8 months in the hospital. I was psychotic the whole time.
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My second one was drug induced. I was on speed for a time. Moved back to my hometown started hanging out with some old friends that introduced me to it. Probably the dumbest thing I’ve ever done.
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Mine I believe started on my 16th birthday. Didn’t put that together till later that it might have been literally on my birthday. We went to a specific skatepark out of town for my bday. When I stepped out of the car the whole world was darker and i felt heavy and my reality was heavy. I could barely roll up the ramps. It was a gradual decline from there. I ended up having my twenty first birthday in the hospital.
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yes, I was delusional for over a year…wrote my book about it…it’s all on the home page of this forum.
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Yeah, me too.
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Alright thanks for the replies. It seems like psychosis is the norm. I’ll ask her about it when I see her. I thought it was kinda weird but who knows she’s had a crazy life.
Mine was very extreme one… actually it’s harder to decide whether I had one pscyhosis, or one after another… because even during pscyhosis there were moments when I was… kind of stable. So close ppl as family says I had two pscyhoses.
But I personally say I had 1.
My symptoms started at 16. And I started behaving as a human again at age 18. Overal lenght of psychosis was like… ~1year-1,5 year.
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How’d you discover you needed treatment? I didn’t get help until around 4 years after it began. My sister told my dad that I had schizophrenia when I was first becoming I’ll. He didn’t want to hear it, but I eventually got involuntarily committed. I did see a psychiatrist and a doctor cause I knew something was off to say it mildly. The doctor gave me antidepressants which I didn’t take and I only saw the psychiatrist once which is kinda my fault. Also I’ve heard of people like John Nash’s son who got ill then got it together enough to complete school then ended up in treatment later on. And psychosis is episodic so there are possibly periods where even without treatment you can have a kinda remission.
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My english is very imperfect when I need to explain such things… I’ll try to be short.
At the beginning when few symptoms started, these were mostly strange physical sensations, I went to psychologist by myself. I was 16 then. I thought, wow, something is happening with me- but i was hell no sure is this mental or physicall illness. Even psychologist didn’t noticed anything strange, because I was still communicating logically and normally. But when the real, actual pscyhosis started (which was after unbelievable high dose of meth) my parents took me to hospital, even though they had idea that either i Am really unwell, or I am simply pretending. Then I was forced to take treatment, but I was thinking I am a creator of the universe (I was super duper delusional back then after meth) and I thought I do not need meds… my first med was olanzapine and these meds were not really working for me, personally. Then, for a year, my parents tried everything. We even went to a charlatan to cure me with… leafs and etc. Overall there were many ups and downs untill I found my doctor which I have from 2017. She gave me haloperidol which quite helped me, and when I started ablify I was becoming better and better everyday.
So, on 2018 autumn after a long time I was stable again. And quitted weed. All thanks for my pdoc, and parents which didn’t gave up, even though some doctors wanted me to go to “school for kids with special needs”.
woah it’s a long one, sorry.
*ADD. Overall doctors were hell no sure what was wrong with me in the beginning of my pscyhosis. There were several ideas- it’s SZA, or it’s epilepsy (actually I don’t have epilepsy), or even consequences of a tick bite.
But as my doc says the real trigger for psychosis was street drugs.
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Same experience… I’m curious on what made you take drugs after the first one. In my case, I really thought I was safe.
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My second major psychotic break was caused by meth use. Saw shadow people and all. I actually remember the first time I smoked weed. It was at a party but I was already ill. I remember it pretty well. So that kinda ruled out the drug use as the cause. If it happened later it’d be up in the air.
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sorry to hear… 
Meth is a terrible drug. I would say second worst after heroin, from what I’ve read.
I tried it once and I went into pscyhosis. tried because of my brother. (he said is giving me 0,2g while he gave 1g) I know I shouldn’t share these details here. I am just still so sad, there’s a possibility he wanted me to die from meth. Because it’s unbelievable high dose.
My bro is the reason I don’t want to go back home sometimes.
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It’s super sad that brothers and sisters ■■■■ up each others like that…
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gooosh yes! And I thought he is a good one, a good friend of mine before all this stuff hapenned.
We even had those deep talks…
now, even if it’s sounds childish, he is my enemy for 100%
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