When I'm alone for a few hours

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1st 30 minutes to an hour… Still hallucinating. Thinking about the people I was around getting short little messages. Weirdness. In the second hour though I actually start to space out and forget about the trauma and the nature of my experience, The paranoias involved. All of it fades away… It doesn’t seem real. Doesn’t seem like I ever went through it at all. It’s nice, I think isolation is good for me.

Unfortunately though. Its hard wired in my brain when the stimulus is around. All of it. Continuous derailment from normal psychology. Sometimes the things people actually say are just as bad.

I’m trying my best to keep my illness concealed. To carry on in an acceptable manner. Some days I feel like i’ve got my normal mind back. Other days its ■■■■■■■ chaos and I just want to sleep.

At least my voices are pretty much gone. Was thinking about them earlier. Had a dream once where I was lying in bed hearing voices. That was the memory of the dream. Got a voice “I am eric bermuda”. Just from recalling the only time my voices proclaimed a name within a dream. I quickly took my mind off of it and the voices went away.

You get good at that. Not being obsessive. Sometimes I have a little trouble, but I think it is an invaluable tool for getting through this. Being able to generate a normal thought when you need to. A thought that reminds you of what the world was like before it all began.

Still though the illness dominates my mind. When the symptoms subside I just have this WTF kind of mentality. Music and videos and this site help me out quite a bit.

It’s good to have you all as friends.

Take care of yourselves… keep posting.

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To think of the billion fold multitude of people who don’t have “telepathy” in their lives… or do they?

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Stop using the word psychosis. Most people, if they had your experiences with telepathy (aka hallucinations) would also think it was real.

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Really the story plays out completely. “You got a lawsuit coming your way”

■■■■ im thinking about it to much

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If it is a psychosis though thats how it should be labeled.

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Over what you were thinking? Were you threatening them? Dont let them psyche you out!

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Ooh he might know… overheard my therapists say at one point. they automatically torment me

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Take good care of yourself,Bryan Ashley.I had schizophrenia,but it’s not the only problem,one problem can substitute another.I am now facing some issue with concussion minor ones,it’s not as big as a worry than mental problem,but hopeful the dizziness and feeling a bit out of balance will be gone after a while

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I’m trying. It’s just 95% of my thoughts are sz related. there is so much that has happened that makes it seem real.

I’m just getting to the point that I’ve tried everything. I can’t stop it. It’s going to be like this for the rest of my life.

Whether its internal or external. I have to sit here and get called names, all ■■■■■■■ day every day.

It aint right.

I’ll try to calm down.

Thanks for caring GTX. Hope your injuries heal up. I will try and take care of myself.

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try 3 mg’s dude, it might make a different. at 2 I was suicidal.

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I was on 8 and this ■■■■ wasnt any different. Thanks for the suggestion though. I’m allowing it to get to me. I’ve got nothing left to do.

I’ll be running from this ■■■■ for the rest of my life, the entire time itll be chained to my leg. As soon as I stop I’ll realize how heavy it is. Wait its always ■■■■■■■ heavy.

I’m not suicidal. Will never do that.

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Same here. I was on over than 8 at one point. But there is a certain point you need the meds. I’d experiment with 3. Only problem is the libido drop and weight gain, for which you can exercise to supplement.

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Tweaking medication when it’s well can be risky,but if your not doing okay and after a discussion with your p doc and both of you think it’s better to add or change meds for the sake of your well being,the outcome after a few weeks to month can be beneficial,do you agree?

But if your symptoms is still manageable,and your feeling alright most of the time,then it’s no need to change or add meds,meds is a big part for life of people with psychosis

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It sucks, but avoid torture at all costs my friend. Do what you need to do, even if it sucks for your health.

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Well I already have no libido. I just want my meds to last as long as possible. If I can get by on a lower dose I’m going to.

I’m just bitching. Thats what this post turned into. Was supposed to be a bout how I was having periods of normality when I’m away from stimulus… Anyways…

You all know what it’s like anyways…

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Really my meds havent done ■■■■ to this hallucination framework… ever.

I’ll up my meds if I start hearing voices again.

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I thought you were already hearing voices? I am confused.

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What kind of hallucinations are you having, if not voices?

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These aren’t voices man. I mention that I heard a voice say one thing earlier but thats it. Got the voices under control.

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^ read previous post.