i still doesn’t see any other schizophrenics who spend so much time in isolation… i should seek among the old junkies or the alcoholics who had some strong addictions like my illness is… its the toughest part to get over, it depresses me still when i think of all this. all that i have now is my mother and one ill friend…i should look awful because of my passivity…
I was sort of surprised by a response of how deal with avoidant personality disorder. which is avoiding doing things. The answer is do more things. How to combat being isolated stop being isolated for one. Join a social group make friends stop being isolated. Improve your social skills.
i saw a friend today @Dreamscape2. but you understand probably that i would like just to feel some joy one day?i am fed up to feel like ■■■■… yeah, the typical sz seek for perfection and health… i am just saying that sometimes i look bacl and all i see is hell
Yeah I understand totally. What has is working for me is a ■■■■ load of therapy to try and move on from the past. Also has given me better social skills to help me make friends and stop being so isolated. For like the first time in my life (I’m 46 now) I’m letting people into my life.
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no, therapy wont help me i know it. i should move myself with the reality… but were you practically on a bed for 15 years? i guess no. its just me on the hole ■■■■■■■ forum… now i am dumb and fat and ugly…
Why do you think therapy wont help you? 130 years of study into mental illness by some of the sharpest minds on earth vs your irrational believes.
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i dont have the strength anymore to go everyday or once in a week or something like this… plus my pdocs were saying that on this stage therapy wont help me but i know that they can be wrong… its more my lack of motivation here.
I’ve spent around 1 year talking to very few people. The exception is that I still go to church but this one I don’t talk to that many people other than my family. Anyway all you need is some activity where you meet a lot of people. That’s what I need but I need money to do the things that I am thinking of. So I’m waiting till I get a job.
Go to therapy and put in effort. You’ll get over it in time
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I value your spirit of not giving up.
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i invited this morning one another friend, sick also… i sometimes cant even talk anymore… what a damn illness. i still have those ideas and questions about what the reality should be but i guess its a wrong path. i couldn’t sleep this night and i am always worse if i didn’t slept… i cant think after a night like this, less than usual… idk if there are other sz for whom it took so much time to recover. for me,it will take still a lot of time… the past depresses me like the future… that’s all. i am like a zombie now… i succeed only to irritate my nephew for example, he gets mad to me with all my questions and remarks…
It will be quite difficult, but you will, if you want to 
It’s possible, but more than likely the isolation you’re putting yourself in fills a need for you. As long as your getting what you need (not always the same as what you think you want) you’ll remain in this state until the pain of remaining there is greater than leaving.
The natural process (referred to as ‘getting over it’) automatically takes over without all the fear and dread that kept you a prisoner in your own mind.
Be careful though, you could find you actually start to enjoy life again.
I saw a friend yesterday but she is ill also. she has negative symptoms too. yeah, I know. I should stick with meds. at least I am calmer. but sometimes, I feel just a pain in my soul, its almost physical. ill try to go out when I can. it wouldn be to that point if I was diagnosed earlier. besides the illness, I wasn’t so isolated before but now I gave up cause nobody paid attention to me before… I was quite cold and strange, a bit excentric too. plus, my emotions were dying, my good ones… they are dead since I am child…yeah, it will take time I guess. its so good to feel positive emotions I find, to feel in good mental health. at least, I think less about suicide.
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