17 years that I almost vegetate… Since the year of 2001 I live between 4 walls the most of the time. Since the year of 2007, for the most of the part I literally stopped going out for longtime or in long distances. I go out still but its very few and I don’t consider this as a life…
are you schoked by this? Or there are other bad things in this world? wow…
I wish I could recover a bit more, but the fight will be tough. Tell me that it can happen to me despite those past years. Tell me its even very possible… idk… life like mine is not a life very often. I don’t want to complain anymore, cause complaining was an issue for me, but I wish I knew that I can recover one day… my mom doesn’t believe it anymore for me with my past she says…
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Maybe you got so used to never leaving the house that it became a very powerful habit. As people we are very habit forming in our behaviours and patterns
Kind of like a hermit who lives alone and decides to stay that way forever.
But maybe if that hermit one day decided to try and take a walk into town it may be uncomfortable at first but eventually it may not be so bad, eventually he might even enjoy get out and about
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hi @Anna1, with the advent of new precise medications which also address negatives and cognitive side of the sz and have way fewer side effects better days are ahead. You will be on better medicine soon.
Also, there are ample chances that cure will be found in next 5-7 years due to breakthroughs in genetics and stem cell therapy.
I have been in a sovial isolation sine theage of 15. My friends started to disapear. Then for a while i had 1 friend and then she disappeared when i was 15.
It sucks. I have been telling myself its temporary. But im getting upset already.
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Hmm, 17 years is indeed a very long time. Half of your life.
Is it possible to get better?
Yes it is still possible to improve. But you must believe it. Strongly. Be ready to die trying to improve. You need a lot of guts and resolve. There is no other way…
I was ill for 3 years and it is already difficult to get back to a normal life. But if I analyze my situation more deeply, things have slowly started going wrong since 2002. So 16 years ago. But I got better in the past year so it’s possible.
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YES YES YES it’s possible!
With time and support you will see that you are making advancements in life!
And i’m not shocked at all because I’ve been in isolation for years too.
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I’m not shocked at all, no. I kind of live in isolation as well because I only leave my apartment to go down to dinner everyday for an hour. And also to pray for 20 minutes as a group, Monday through Friday. Other than that, I am alone. Difference between me and you is I don’t see it as a problem.
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I stay home most of the time.
I only leave the house to go to doctors appointments and sometimes to the occasional store or my brothers house.
And even when I do leave the house it’s rarely by myself.
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my mother was like that. try taking small walks that get longer
I have felt isolated for two years so far it’s part of the reason I am depressed. Being like this for so long has often increased my anxiety when I do encounter people. I am sorry I cannot even imagine 17 years I hope things will change for you if you believe it.
yeah… and now I am just afraid i’ll never recover and ill suffer as hell because of those years… You can go quite deep with so many years of isolation… I am anxious and almost fainting by fear only when imaging to do a simple task around people etc etc. The most of the time I don’t do it. Of course that ill continue fighting, but with all these years behind me, maybe ill die before succeeding as Andrey said 
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p.s. well, I guess I am from the ‘‘lazy’’ szs… gosh… I don’t know if some here are like me… since kid I talk few, I act few, I sleep a lot, I was scotched to my mom etc etc
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When you hopefully come out of it you will be able to appreciate life much more than before because u have suffered so much. But I understand the anxiety I think the whole process of change has to happen with baby steps doing small things first
but @anon90843118, I became avoidant if you see… Some days are better, but sometimes I am like possessed outside 
… I just walk fastly outside and I am not caml at all. I feel some kind of excitement in my soul, nervousness I guess, fear… To the point to feel my brain in my head. I guess my intellectual degradation can contribute to don’t feel fine outside. Ill continue my efforts, but sometimes I just don’t do anything which sucks for an eventual stabilization. There wasn’t a med for me who calmed my fear on 100%, and I guess I stopped looking for a med to do this… Maybe with the years and the Zyprexa, ill become calmer? Maybe I should take my home-prison and believe that activating even at my house will help? Cause at the end, there were prisoners who became social avoidant, but they overcame it no?
@Anna1 I am often not doing much I even take naps during the day because of this but I still think I am doing more now than before maybe u too it is a long process the recovery but it is worth trying it I think to see if it works… Are u on any other medication? The fear… maybe with practice with people like do u have MI support groups? It can maybe slowly get a bit less.
A question I would ask is what defines ‘isolation’ ? At my old address most fortnights the only contact I had was at the depot clinic. I saw family very sporadically when they visited.
Here I see my stepdaughter several times a week and my granddaughters several times a month . I also see the depot nurse every fortnight. There is no other regular contact. Am I still isolated I wonder?? Is isolation measured by how many people you see or how proactive you are in seeing other people. By the former yardstick I see people more frequently. By the latter yardstick I’m no more or less proactive. It’s just that family are closer to me.
Then there is the issue of - 1)How to make contact with others 2)How to form relationships from that social contact. Above all that is perhaps how much are you driven/want to interact with others in the first place . Most of the time I’m happy with my own company. I don’t go out of my way to interact with others.
I am , I think,more asocial than social.
Raging against my isolation is pointless i guess, yeap… but the life involves the others you know… whatever, ill try to handle this as best as i can.
Otherwise, i still take some of my symptoms as abstract. I mean i try to not think about some of my symptoms in order to get better. But i am not sure i make the right thing. In your opinion and experience? Does avoiding what happens in our heads can help us? Well a tricky thing,no? 
So people, is it a good thing to ignore my symptoms,please, or it wont work? One of my worst symptom is that my energy goes to my feet and i am scared in those moments… do you see a bit? Just all my “life” energy who goes to my feet and i feel weak and like my brain is drowned in those moments…idk what is this tbh…
Seems like I remember you -
Someone please? Do you see what I mean by all my energy who goes to my feet and the result is that all I feel is weakness? I focalize on my brain too in these moments. what thing is this???
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