Isolation to me was very unhealthy, dark thoughts, self medicating, obsessive ruminations.
It’s better out in the world, I think.
When I started pushing myself, it started to go away, the dark thoughts lift a bit, and you’re more at peace. Medication helped me tremendously, but therapy and social reintroduction too.
I think I have been isolated ever since I was in my teens so that is over ten years,i still have faith that things can turn around, if I can ,so can you :))))))
I am 37 years old… And maybe i was treated badly by everybody, am not sure… My doc said, that i’ll always suffer and my mother keeps saying, that i’ll never get better…
Not good to be angry tonight, but i am… I have my somatics since kid and i worry about them… I tried 11 aps for the last ten years and no one didn’t get me outside with more desire and less worries… maybe it will come… I take my maintaining dose of an ap, but maybe i shouldn’t count on them after ten years of trying them all?..
I find that i am the only one who complains so much here and i don’t understand why i am like this … Some of you had it bad as me, but i am so in pain sometimes that its not imaginable… Why i am just complaining? Isnt there anything else here despite my illness? Why i am so negative? Tbh, i went dumb…
I don’t move cause ill be completely alone without her… She says it sometimes, not always… I depend on the food from her also… and she is a company… I don’t fight to change the others anymore… I should get out of this negativism by my own i find… The others will always try to beat us in a way…
anyway, thanks for trying to help… You see me how i am… Whats my problem then? why i complain while the others never?
I lived with a father who beated till death my mom and my sister also…
It’s a bit different for me because I may be able to stay off meds but I have to be prepared for the fact that I am maybe also sz in the future which does make me upset from time to time. Very upset sometimes too
Sorry Anna idk… I also duuno wat ur physical suffering is but sometimes doing things u are passionate about, n looking after ur health, eases the mind and even helps physically cos the mind and body are connected.
Yeap, the mind and body are connected, its true. well, there is the immobility from the years, but my physical comes from my mind too since kiddo… Ok, ill try to sleep then now, am exhausted from boiling up so much inside tonight… maybe cry too if i can…