Im no longer insecure. When I was younger I used to talk non stop out of nervousness. I would also try to use humor at every opportunity, to try to appeal to others. But now Im lucky beacause I can relax around others and not use humor like I used to. I now know how to be quiet with people better than I used to. And you know I like it.
Why I like being older, although I do not consider 41 an old ageāonly 90+ is old --, I have a healthier mind-body functioning now then as a street kid then. I am seriously lucky my bone tissue has been repaired by nutrition.
For me fitting is has always been about where I stand with others in terms of ethics.
Deeply searching, each day I take a moment to look into the world and find special qualities of nature and people and structure.
At this age, I see myself as wise as the image, source unknown, depicts:

Karl, do you feel you become more wise each day, too?
I suppose in a way you can call it wise, my behaviour is more mature.
Yes. You are wise. Some āold enoughā folks are not wise and remain immature. Not at all easy to be around them.
I grew up around older people in their 70ās and 80ās, although if you closed your eyeās, you wouldnāt know they were that āoldā except that they were more responsible, stronger, and secure than the people in my age group.
I never feared getting old, just wish my body wouldāt feel so old.
I know exactly what you mean I no longer have to be me PLUS
me plus funny me plus clever me plus sensible I can just be ME.
I donāt know if I have gotten any wiser with age or not. I donāt have that kind of desperation that I had in my youth, but there is quite a bit going on with me that is intense.
I feel Iām fairly wise and āconsciousā for my age but Iām still trying to learn to be more ānaturalā. Iām reading up Taoism and the author says there are 3 stages in lifeā¦The natural unconscious stage, the awkward but conscious stage, and then the 3rd stage when you put the 2 together. I feel Iām on my way to the 3rd stage but might take a few years. But at 24 thatās perfectly normal.
**And when were 90--we wont think that`s old!
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I have assisted some blind folks in that age range. I would have never known they were blind if they hadnāt told me. Talk about self determination!