Sometimes I want to die. But sometimes I’m so glad I’m still here. I think growing older is cool. I feel so much more centered than I did when I was young. Of course there’s this whole mentally ill thing that gets in the way. But sometimes I feel like a wise person with a patience and confidence that I never knew as a youngster. And I get to say the word youngster, how cool is that? Do you feel you have a certain wisdom now that you’re aging?
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I feel like I’m getting wiser, which is good, but it’s also bittersweet because I’m realizing all the times I was wrong in my life. Like when your parents tell you you’ll understand when you’re older. I think I’m starting to understand all those things. I guess as I get older I’m getting more regrets, which doesn’t make me feel good, but maybe that’s part of aging too. I don’t know.
Oh, why can’t why start old and get younger?
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It’s a good question. I don’t know. I’ve learned a few humbling things along the way.
I enjoyed my youth. I’d like to enjoy my old age too.
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I miss my metabolism. I used to eat like five meals a day and a bowl of ice cream and gained literally NOTHING. Until I hit 29 or 30, I stayed 5 foot 11 and 130 pounds.
Now I’m 175 and 185 if I want to eat icecream every now and then. Curse you aging process!!!
EDIT: The first time I got heartburn, on vacation from a sundae at 24, I thought I had something that needed to be operated on at the E.R. My friend was like get some Tums and it made it go away instantly. I suppose that was the beginning of the end for my careless diet 
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Yeah, I finally learned to dress myself last year with minimal help.
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Wiser everyday. Everyday a new lesson. I’m definitely more humble going through this whole process of being mentally ill.
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I don’t think I’m getting wiser
I think I’m getting bitchier.
More pissed off by what I’ve been dealt
and still dealing with.
About 10 years ago up to 5 years ago I was exremely well read.
Before that it was body intelligence.
Now I’m just working thru my sore spots.
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As I’m aging, my ambition is steadily declining as the realities of my situation sink in more fully. I still have some flexibility as to my fate, but I feel like I’m at a marked disadvantage from the mean with my schizophrenia diagnosis and brain injury.
I don’t think I can be a total social butterfly, but I want to be able to go to crowded events once in a while without freaking out.
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I don’t really miss going out. I’m a homebody anyway.
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I am growing older. Now 61, I feel speechless.
And so I will say …
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i don’t know how to do old, so bad I see two people trying to handle it. Zen
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I’m 58 and a half. I’m definitely getting older. I was told that I was “wise” the other day. Yeah, I’m wise about all things MI. And I’m pretty well read and educated. But smart I’m not.
I’m glad to be older. I’m a lot more well and stable now as an older woman than I was as a younger woman. The difference is like night and day. I would never want to go back.
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for all those over 50 on this thread I hope everyone has been getting their colonoscopies !! I have another one this coming two weeks and they are a life saver.
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At 52 years of age, I’m old enough to know better, but still young enough to do it anyways. 
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I’m 59, and I am more content than I was when I was younger. I lost that desperate feeling that life was passing me by. Life ain’t bad.
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I guess I should say I feel wiser in my years…I don’t make the mistakes I did when I was younger…plus the friends I have I wouldn’t trade for a million bucks…life ain’t bad…crimby is right…
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I just feel older. Not one bit wiser. Just much more tired
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Actually, dressing is getting more difficult with age. Arthritis. I hate getting dressed now. Sometimes I don’t put on pajamas just to spare my joints.
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I have one scheduled for October 2nd. It’s my first time.
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I love getting older. I have fewer years left than I’ve already lived! It feels like I’ve been climbing up a steep hill that’s just starting to level out a bit. Maybe I get to see the peak and start my descent soon…
The great mystery and all the hopes and expectations of youth are lifted. No one expects me to go any higher than I have, so that’s a great relief.
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