Who was to the point of hiding from everything, but got better?(poll)

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I feel a bit alone on this. I hide since 15 years I find… So it turned bad… Don’t ask me how I got here pls… My illness was from the ‘‘dead’’ thing, with a plus of paranoia and fears. So if one med helps on something, its bad for another. For example, I cant handle abilify. It makes my paranoia worse.
Once I saw one another lady in the hospital with paranoia. She was hiding behind the doors of her room. I am almost the same for some 4, 5 hours in the evening. But I feel guilty and worried about my future now. Should I stop blaming myself to not move enough, when I cant do it?
Who else was hiding and avoiding the people, but got better? Did you also feeling guilty of not acting enough? this is the hard part tbh… My head will explode from thinking when I am inactive, I get even headaches…

  • me
  • I never hided or isolated

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I isolated for a long time. To a degree I do now. M social life is limited to my husband and online friends. When I am feeling bad or symptomatic aside from mania I withdraw and barely speak to anyone.

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Ok, thanks for the answer mombie :confused: … Me, no way to ‘‘do’’ when I am at my worst. My head feels very painful then… I should have been treated earlier, but this is another question… I am ‘‘lazy’’ since kid. That’s why I gave up years ago. I met few people, who hide like me, so I feel alone yeap. I still believe, that with the time, this can change, but I have few time left. The kicking aps make my paranoia worse. I prefer the sedatives… But even they, they don’t work on my fears. so my struggle is a bit lonely :frowning: .

But yes, I had my suffering to be the only retarded one, the only one with only negative emotions, with bad motricity compared to all other girls around me and just looking as ■■■■… Plus the paranoia from the years now…

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and I write here in order to find strength from you to continue fighting, that’s all… Cause i lived as a prisoner for 17 years. And even before it, it was bad. In general i just get advices, but i only need hope that all this can change even now…

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The sz makes me want to isolate but I know it is not the best thing for me.

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Im isolating at the moment. Cos i hide from people i dont want a confrontation with - and im saving money. Its not always a bad thing - i would be probably pissed as a fart if i went out lately - but i gotta stay in and lay off the drink.

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It can get better! You can find a group of people you are comfortable with. It will be scary and hard, and you won’t feel like yourself at first, but eventually you will open up more. You will still have anxiety and you might not always feel like being around them, but you will be motivated to push through it.

I know you don’t want any more advice, but if you want ideas of where you can connect with people I can let you know.

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Hi again.
So no miracles for me from the meds. I feel different even on this here… I have sz friends, who are narcistis, manic, they are out and have fun. and me, I ve spent 20 years like this… How to swallow this? To be more wise maybe?
I want emotions, not o0nly negative ones… I want my head full of ideas, not just my retarded thoughts and paranoid ones… How so I am the only one who went prisoner by her own for some 20 years? did the others were more spoiled or what, tell me??? I am tired of trying to be a better person always. no, I am not a bad person… Maybe some will criticize me here on this, because of my eternal complaining, but why I am not a spoiled kid?
One ill friend thinks that the Zyprexa can help me on my negatives. I wonder if its true?..
Maybe I have a bit of progress of not feeling my body sensations… bit its a small progress, cause I still feel some things. Plus, I get in despair about my situation still every second day…
is it possible to start feeling emotions now, that I do so few activity?

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