So yeap, I have many problems… I am a severe sz but I try to fight…
But I still have many moments, where it’s not human… I am even scared that I’ll die lately 
my paranoia is sometimes very bad too, but I still try to talk on my friends on the phone even then… But is this superfluous? Cause I suffer when I am bad in socializing… But isn’t this the path to recovery too? To talk to others precisely when at my worst?
But yeap, I still prefer to hide and run away when I am in pain, but what if I need to beat this 20 years old isolation??
This illness is hell tbh… I hope also I wont die now around my multiple coffees and cigarettes in the day and the few eating… It needs more than this to die too? 
Take care all
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Your situation depends on what you want-and what you’re willing to do get it. Obviously, there’s self-limitations for everybody and stuff beyond anyone’s control but you have some power and control in your life. If your goal is to socialize then take steps to achieve it. If your goal is to go get a cup of coffee somewhere than take steps to achieve it. You seem like a fairly intelligent individual, you can figure out how to get what you want. And sometimes achieving something doesn’t have to be impossibly difficult. Taking a walk down the street in the morning two or three times a week doesn’t have to be this huge thing. Probably no one’s going to bug you.
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At least make sure your dr knows. And if you see a case mgr let them know too
i was scared to go outside and in the psych ward psychologist did exercises with me, like watching me do walk at the paths in the psych ward and slowly i could go outside a bit more. I still don’t go outside alone but i go for a walk with my dad sometimes. Maybe you can do something similar?
Thanks. Me, i am the opposite still. I prefer to go outside alone, cause i get overwhelmed and paranoid when the others talk to me… But i go outside now since an year for something like 10 minutes…
I was just wondering if i still should talk to my friends on the phone, when i am very numb, somatic and paranoid and just thinking all kind of bull****. I am worse in the evenings too i find… I guess i’ve spent too much time thinking of bad things, decades 
. It still remains an illness to have ended up like this, but i’ll try to change some things here…
You all feel better when exactly if you could say? Me, i have problems waking up, but my evenings are the hardest…
if it feels good to talk to your friends on the phone then i would do it. Personally i find phone talks very hard, i don’t like to use the phone.
Yeap, i often dont feel fine for the phone either tbh… I am even tired to listen, to talk too… I have my painful sick beliefs too then… Do you believe we can get better on this too? 
Well, i allow myself lately the rest too lol… I wanted to be just as a normie before, which sucked…
yea i’m not sure we can get better on this too. I like to believe so but i’m not sure.
I hope so too, yeap… I became very sick in socializing, it was hard…
I think this. You are alive and thinking of your problems. I think you are suffering.
Thought for me seems to take effort. Sometimes I feel restricted and can’t think. Then I just jot notes on a pad of paper.
If your case is simple schizophrenia, meds don’t help much with those negatives .
yea socializing is hard. I am glad that when i go for walk with dad we don’t need to talk much. And once every month mobile team girl takes me for a walk and then also it’s hard for me cause i can feel i need to socialize but i suck at it.
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