I am starting to think that I might be bisexual. There are gay guys that I actually get that gut feeling around. I have only had sex with females, I’ve never even kissed a guy. But there was also a period when I was 16 when I was somewhat undecided about my sexuality, I considered myself bisexual back then but I hadnt even had my first kiss so what I thought didnt matter. Now I am getting impulses to ditch my female friend with benefits for a guy. I keep thinking about it. Like I am starting to plan it out. I got a single girls number last week but I havent even thought about contacting her even though she kept complementing me because I am more fixated on this one guy.
I get that gut feeling around metrosexual, rather feminine looking guys, not manly men. I go to a powerlifting/strongman competitor gym and Ive never felt any hint of attraction to manly looking men, I see them as equals. I myself am built and have a masculine face, strong chin and the masculine forehead and all of that. I masturbate to male on female pornography. I have to say ive been aroused by a male though. That happened. And I was seriously aroused specifically by one male, I didnt have a bone for some chick and then look at the dude.
Again, when I was 16 I was bi/undecided because I had never been intimate and felt attracted to girls and guys in my class, spent time with both but never got sexually involved. When I was 17 I decided on being perfectly straight and drastically changed my appearance, I started lifting every day, shaved by long hair and got two belts in Krav Maga and quit feeling attracted towards the boys in my class. I went from being 135 to 170 in a year. I think I had a testosterone wave, I got really sexually driven towards girls. I just got rejected a whole lot.
I really would appreciate some feedback, especially from bisexuals. Did you always know you were bisexual? Do you enjoy intimacy with one gender a little more than with the other? Do you go back and forth between straight and gay or do you constantly feel attracted to members of both sexes?