Added to my previous post: I am now seeing my hallucinations, i’m going in and out of delusion which is excellent, no more constant delusion and panic.
i have had a period of frightning visual hallucinations since childhood,
then they where gone.
couple of years ago i also had visual hallucinations for an period.
yet i do have the random voices, strong dellusions, paranoia, depression,
have had ocd typical behaviour and still do when it comes too my thought behaviour.
intrusive thoughts, and such… for what i am trying to deal with.
I hallucinate colors, my vision out of my eyes looks like a 3rd graders coloring book.
I won’t say I’ve never had hallucinations before, but it was always a rare thing for me, not really an issue. I have significant problems with paranoia and delusions.
I would say there is no black and white depiction of schizophrenia. Everybody is going to experience it differently. One of the hallmarks has historically been hallucinations and voices. But what about those in between cases where you’re not at one extreme or the other? If you believe that there is an underlying cause to your depression and anxiety, is that a delusion? What counts as an auditory hallucination? I have tinnitus. There are differing opinions on what causes it. What counts as a hallucination? It doesn’t have to be pink elephants. One could argue that deja vu is a kind of hallucination. Psychiatry is a gray science which is appropriate when dealing with gray matter. Within those shades of gray you discover just how far down the rabbit hole you are and get an idea of how much further it extends.