If my thoughts were delusional then I wouldn’t have scars or lovebites that I couldn’t explain. Just because u hear voices doesn’t mean that nothing happened. If I thought like u then no schizophrenic could ever report a crimeand hope to get a prosecution. II’m glad the police don’t think like u.
I’ve gotta say youre being very rational and I like what you’re saying…I think it’s best to realize that we all have a brain disease and f-ed up neurotransmitters. I used to think there was a computer chip in my head…and that’s not healthy, that’s poor insight and not a good place to be.
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Chordy,
I have to agree with what you say. In my case I also have a lack of stimulation but in the begining it was isolation from not connecting with anyone. Then the voices started and the feeling that I was being watched and other non sensical things. Lucky I could keep my head on straight and not totally freak out or really believe what was happening was real, not real true or not true. The tables in my mind were always turning.
I believe there is something wrong with my brain system. The auditory channel the vision channel is messed up somehow. I like reading about the brain nervous system and learning and trying to change mine somehow.
You’re way off track. I have no comment about anything other than the fact that this is a site where schizophrenics go to heal. It is not a place where people go to pat each other on the back for believing that their voices have a non-schizophrenic source.
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Ok I just want to clear the air and state that we are all schizophrenic and our voices come from imbalances of Dopamine, Serotonin and Glutamate…not from anything else…come on people we all know we have schizophrenia, denial is maybe the worst place to be in regards to recovery. Insight into schizophrenia is crucial to recovery.
But I used to think there was a computer chip in my head…before I knew I was schizophrenic.
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I have to agree with you mortimermouse. I used to think my fillings were broadcasting my thoughts across the radio and TV. So long as I take my meds and do healthy things, I am not bothered by that nonsense. My delusions, voices, and stinkin’ thinkin’ all hail from schizophrenia. As Malvok said, the sooner I started to realize these were products of my illness, the sooner I was able to move on with my recovery.
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I have a feeling my voices showed up when I was five because I had no friends, no one to keep me company. When I was three I saw the devil, and I think I have always had the disease I do. I feel like my head circus came up because I have no one, and they are my only friends.
And if my “illness” was the product of simple brain chemistry I’d completely agree with u but it’s not and there is nothing u can say to change that. I take my meds and will experiment with different drugs for the sake of proving my case. If I find one that works then hallelujah but it won’t change the fact that I was raped and brainwashed.
Trauma and schizophrenia are correlated…I was molested and went to catholic school where they tried to brainwash me. It’s in the research that trauma is strongly associated with schizophrenia.
My pdoc thinks trauma triggered my sz. When I was 9 years old, my mom came down with cancer. She died 2 years later. Ten months after her death, I had my onset. Before my 13th birthday, I was in full-raging schizophrenia with voices telling me to kill my dad and stepmom.
“Simple brain chemistry”? What exactly is so simple about it?
That’s offensive on a number of levels.
I can’t really get into the details, i don’t really know the details, all that i can say is they come from someone.
Who, how, and why i don’t know really.
My voices come from the outside word, from people out on the streets, near or far by, from radio and tv, people who are strangers or aquaintences.
I believe they come from the spirit world. I’m very spiritual, more into mysticism but not in a “magick” sense, just that I pray and talk to my spiritual guides often. People say that they can tell I’m surrounded by protectors.
I prayed away a lot of my ailments. I believe that to uplift the self and spiritual mind, we have to reach outside ourselves. I had a conversation with a deceased friend recently, we both “heard” her, and he said she was standing near the lamp outside and she gave us friendly advice, and told my boyfriend and I to take our relationship seriously or else it was going to affect us negatively. Others don’t believe in the spirit world like I do. But I’ve had experiences that have proven their existence.
One time this younger girl was giving me a gypsy card reading, and I asked her: I wonder a place I shouldn’t go, or that would be dangerous. Suddenly her cellphone searched New York City on its own. I thought it odd, years later a dangerous group of friends convinced me to drive them to none other than NYC. I barely made it home. I know I was being protected by the angels. I could feel their presence. I’m trying to live up to the purpose of the angels but sometimes I need a hint or nudge in the right direction. They talk to me a lot.