what was it like for you when it first hit
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It was beautiful. Like neo in the matrix
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Couldnt knew what was it like…??
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At first it was really cool. Like your mind had been opened up to the world’s secrets and you could see everything for what it actually was. Then you get paranoid thinking that everyone knows everything about you. Then you think that everyone is making fun of you and plotting against you. And then you think people are closing in on you to do harm. Then it’s time for the hospital. That was what my first episode was like.
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Goddess Annette was talking to me and I fell in love with her and even wrote a love letter to her asking her to marry me…
It was terrible. Every time I saw the same car more than once on a ride, I thought they were following me and that they had to be the voices I was hearing. I couldn’t stand going to restaurants, because I would hear the insulting voices, and think it had to be someone in the restaurant (which given the info I had, made since.)
Terrifying. I nearly didn’t live through it.
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I’m still being determined for schizophrenia by my doctor but my first psychosis was terrifying.
At first it was good and calm and happy then progressively got worse after that. It started off by me forming a fictional relationship with some girl I knew(Luckily I never seen her physically throughout this experience, that would be awkward haha). At the end of it all my coworkers, friends and cousins were dead. Only people thought to be alive were the people I seen daily and one person I was protecting throughout it. They were killed because Trump, Kim and Putin couldn’t find me; so they killed the closest people they could find to me. I was infected with numerous unheard of diseases but still functioning. One of the diseases produced spiders internally so I couldn’t really open my mouth at the time to talk but that didn’t matter. Everybody and everything could read my mind and I could read theirs. I was being stalked and harassed daily. I was made out to be most wanted person in the world even though I didn’t do anything bad. Some people even thought harvesting my organs would fetch them a good price but luckily I could rebuild my organs after they took them.
After a good month of that torture I finally got help. It was quite traumatic, I remember it all to this day and it’s been a year since it happened. I want to have another one in hopes of it staying good and happy but I know that won’t be the case. On the road to recovery now.
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After I went to the rave took some exstatasy hade a blast baoyght some Molly from someone there I remember wishing i wish life was like this always after that I was going crazy in a good way hyper socialbal them. Thing happened for.the worst I lost my gf because of pscosis lost my job cause I thought ppl could hear my thoughts and we’re plotting against me then I lived with my mom pacing around talking to myself I was thinking crazy thaoights I was awake all night walking around picking up cigs stealing liqiir laughing and talking to myself while in store last time I went through psycosis it wasn’t bad felt close to the earth very nice
I don’t know when it first hit or what that was like. Mine is very insidious that way.
My prodromal stage started with lying lost in thoughts for hours at a time. This was great. But gradually these thoughts became persecutatory. But stuff got negative so insipidly that it wasn’t startling enough to immediately seek out help.
The paranoid thoughts became so familiar that they seemed 100% genuine and believable. Life wasn’t fun at this point
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When I had my psychotic break I thought people that I knew were conspiring to expose and humiliate me. I thought that they were spying on me and following me around and writing about everything I did on the internet. I called the police to report it and then thought the police officer was a fake cop hired by those who were conspiring against me to further humiliate me. I didn’t know who I could trust. Every time I thought of someone, I would realize that they were in on it too. It felt like the world was closing in on me. It was truly frightening.
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i became even more horribly obsessive than i already was, felt like i was constantly in pain, was confused as to why i felt so bad all the time and why everyone was talking about me so much
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it was a pure and honest feeling. I felt like I was living heaven on earth. then I thought the world was ending because I was so high on life and that’s when I was immediately sent to the hospital.
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Like getting hit by a runaway train going 400 mph.
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A waking dream with a lot of New Age and religious content. Nothing terrible happened, tho. I took a trip to the coast when no one knew where I was, but I had the presence of mind to call my parents to come pick me up. I think learning the DX was a worse tragedy than the psychotic experience.
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I found dementia thrilling.
It was like never being heard by anyone. Like being invisible. It’s how I felt with hopelessness and anger.
I saw shadow creature thingies they tried to aggravate me and tried to get me to commit suicide.
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My sza was very gradual - started with panic attacks and voices when I was 14, then a few years later went to depression and hypomania then to delusions and self harm and by that time I had my first breakdown. I was 18.
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That’s a good summary